Not long ago someone asked me if
I was still in love, and it caught me
Off guard actually it scared the hell
Out of me. I don’t fall in love I avoid
That **** so I had no answer for him.
Especially since he said "still" instead
Of just you know, "are you in love" so
I said nothing, but then I started to
Think.

I was "in like" with that one guy-
The first one to really pay me any
Attention; he said I was pretty and
He talked to me when no one else
Would, so that made me feel special.
But did I love him? I don’t think so-
No.

Then there was that other guy, the
One who was so ****ed up all the
Time, everyone thought he was
Crazy and his family had money and
He only hung out with me in order to
Piss them off, rebelling you know, some
People still do that, and when he was gone
I missed him like crazy, but it wasn’t really
Love.

There were others I can check off in my
Mind by name, if I can still remember.
And yeah, it burned like a mother****er when
They sent me away, or I took my leave before
I should have and then I had my regrets. But
I got over them, it wasn’t about that, just
Something to do to pass time when you’re
Lonely.

But then there was that time I lost my mind
And I lost my senses and I let myself trip.
Head over heels and down the back stairway
To fall into what I still like to think of as my
Place of sweet surrender, the greatest pain I
Ever had, and ever will and I don’t want to
Lose. And it drives me crazy to think I almost
Did and I wonder about that word that "still."
Do I, was I, ever- did I let myself stumble into
That?

That void of blackness and light and joy where
Everyone says you have to go if you want to live,
Or else you’re only killing time down here.
Is it "still," was it that, I don’t really know, all I
Know is that I don’t mind what you call it, I
Don’t mind if you think I’m crazy for holding
On to something I never really held, all I want
Is for that feeling to never end, I just want to
Close my eyes and lose my step and let myself
Fall.

02/18/10

i think my eyes are broken

i have no idear how to read it, so i read it in one long go, no line pauses.

but it does run through very well. good write

now i need to fix my eyes somehow

Thank you lonetar.

I went back and added punctuation, sorry about that.

I love that "I was in like"...I hear it so often amongst friends...Nice write Leigh, as always...

Thank you Ainjel. Sometimes being "in like" is a lot safer.

It certainly is...So easy to fall in love with someone, then realise later you don't like them...lol...So much better to be "in like" first...

VERY NICE!

Thank you iam4u.

Thanks Gossip.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh I Like,,,,

Thanks LAMom.

Brilliant.

Yes.

Aww, thanks Lex.

like = safe

nice piece

Thanks kc.