oh im not whinning.. i just had not learned lol... im in a different mode... and changing myself... i guess it had to happen right? i was in the midst of "nutting up" lol!! i did miss out though... perhaps it takes in the middle of changing to miss out and nut up?

and goof u are so right!!!!!!!! it may not of been anyway.. but because of changing my patterns.. he is one i may of missed out on... just not the other 4 lmao!!!

i guess u just made this into a possitive for me!

I'm the man!

ha ha first time this happened... was a bit lost .. so ill continue to change not settle. for i have lost 4 losers lmao!!!!!! and one good.. i guess that was worth losing the one that i "thought" may have been good ok ok maybe it was 6 losers!!!!!!!! i think i am realizing the difference now.... something i had to just learn... i have passed on losers before... dont get me wrong... i guess i never had someone so interesting to me when i gave up before... maybe im ready to move on with my change!! honestly i have never given up before either.. maybe it takes that.. i dont know YET!