Was I that tool? You know,
The swimsuit shoot, few screws loose,
Begging to you, don't let me go,
It was over too soon, another blue moon.

Was it really my fault? That you didn't call,
Not even a bit of effort, not one damn bit of pull,
I was clawing the ceiling, trying to stop the bleeding,
Need a tourniquet, otherwise it will never quit, shaking,
I was visibly afraid, I couldn't lose this place,
My safety space, bricked and encased, inside insane,
Little left of center, just leave me to sever the tether.

It needs to end, this pity trip,
This 'over and over' again, with a different spin,
Let's go all-in, the new sin, snip the loose ends.

Did I cause this downfall? The reason for it all,
I can't even crawl, I'm just another lost cause,
I'm swimming through fog, losing the ball,
Couldn't imagine I was lost, that it was my fault,
I was the one that called, if that counts at all,
Apparently I'm done, this one is gone, another loaded gun,
Was it the approach, is that were I choked, didn't 'go for broke'.

It needs to end, this pity trip,
This 'over and over' again, with a different spin,
Let's go all-in, the new sin, snip the loose ends.

Is this where the story ends? Or does it depend,
I could be writing with shaky hands, the pen ink could be red,
Tears could be welling up, just waiting for the ink to dry up,
Written from cover to cover, toss the salt over shoulder,

That one night, remember, you cried, I sighed, we imagined we could fly,
Remember, that one night, I do all of the time.

Wow, Fear, this is great!
One of the best yet I've gotten to read.

I loved it.

Wow is right!

I smell the stench of bloody fingers

I felt the anger/confusion mix!!!

I agree with Plastic, this is your best one I've read.

Number one for me in the what I've read from you.

the pain....this is really good

Thank you everyone, bloody fingers is right...this went from one to the other just to hold the flow, this isn't even the initial write. This is the third or fourth edit of the original, haha. Thanks everyone.

--This will never happen again.--

*The original ending.

"Is this where the story ends? Or does it depend,
I could be writing with shaky hands/The pen ink could be red,
Tears could be welling up/Just waiting for the ink to bleed again,
Written from cover to cover/Toss the salt over shoulder,
This will be my last letter/My blood is getting colder,
My last sentence dedicated to you/I'm barely able to follow through,
But this is it/I'm done with it/We both did this/I cut a bit/You burned the rest."

**I don't usually put out any of the pre-edited work I have, typically because I think the end result of the edits is usually better than the original...however, with this one, I'm not sure.

I like the original ending.