I left last night and deactivated. I got an e-mail asking why so here it
is. I've been here since before Christams I've seen people come and go
and through it all I've stayed. I've met alot of people I thought were
my friends. I've never intentionally hurt anyone here. Yet NO ONE dives
a damn about me. Not realy. You know how many people return my emails
here? Probobly three. I used to talk to people here. Once I e-mailed
every person on my friends list just to see who would reply I think 5
did. Out of the almost 90 I had at that time. It hrts and when it comes
down to it I'm not welcome here.

This past winter everyone was interested in me because I was the broken
one. Then they lost intetest as I grew stronger. I deleted most of my
friends and backed off for a while. My friends list then doubled when I
announced my impending "bundle of joy". Sad huh? People who would NEVER
talk to me...the ones who shunned me where ever I went here were
suddenly my "best friends", That hurt but I went with it...whatever
right? But as time has progressed my
posts,e-mails,testimonials-everything ALL begin to go unnoticed because
I guess you all got bored.

Then last night I said something about it in a post and suddenly I'm
asking for pity, F U C K that I don't need pity. Trust me when I look
in the mirror every morning the last thing I think is "Poor me" I
KNOOOOW Sheryl,Purple,Mom,Morena,and a few more ALL have it worse than
me.

I pray for them I realy DO. But as for e-mailing them to check up on
them I stopped for a reason. EVERY SINGLE TIME I'll send them something
asking "How are you doing?" EVERY SINGLE TIME I get "I'm fine" or they
just completely ignore it. THEN next thing I know I find something in
the forums about them. Something that everyone else seems to already
know about. That hurts. So I've stopped. Think whatever you want of me
but I can't TAKE this anymore. My heart can't, my sanity can't.

It's clear that I'll never be respected here.

I'm unwanted so why should I stay?

It was fun while it lasted I guess but that truly isn't the issue
anymore.

Goodbye guys.

Sorry about the mis-spelled words....

i care..

sorry that you feel this way..

The spot light never stays on one person all the time.

I do too...

Sorry things have been rough for you Song, I haven't known you long, but
wish you the best in whatever you do. Hope you stay, but if you leave,
take care.

Song....

I wish you felt better, I really do. With the baby coming and
everything, your life should be as stress-free as it can be. I'm sorry
that I didn't get to know you better. I wish you all the best.....

Songbirrd please keep in touch with me- ok!

Will miss you greatly... Take care dear...

WE care honey , !! we DO !!
lots goin on ...

Beth,

Honey, I only know you a little while, but you know I care about you!!
I'll talk to you whenever you need or want to. I realize that we don't
know much about each other but I do want you to know that you are
welcome here....even if only by me and the others who post on this
thread. I sent you my other email address right? If not I have yours
and will contact you there, to see what I can do to help you.

Take care of yourself,

Eileen

please don't feel bad

aww sorry ya feel bad

awwwwwww gee song is gone too?
man that really sucks. I have friends that have disappeared from here
and yeah it does hurt... yeah it does hurt when people dont write
back....
song i hope you come back once in awhile and if you want to email me
that would be cool, and yes i do write back..
take care
Claudette

Song,

I'm sorry to see you go through this, especially now with the little one
on the way. I do understand though. Sometimes even writing doesn't get
the job done. People come and go, we all go through things and then try
to figure out how to put it into words. Then other times there just are
no words that can ever make things clear.

I know that I have lost friends that I thought would be around for a
long time, but we all in the end have to find our own peace in our own
way. This is why I stay. There are a lot of families out there that are
not as tight as what we have up here. Even when you may think someone
doesn't care for whatever reason it is sometimes surprising to find out
how much they are trying to understand, and are also wanting the best
for you.

You may not ever read this, but I care, and you will always have the
love of JSH as a whole with you, because you are, and always will be in
our hearts.

My wish for you is peace, period

michael

Beth,,,,,but the baby?????WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS
"WITH" YOU!!!!
The BAD do not out weigh the GOOD HERE,,so get your asss back on
here,,,,oh,,,and the wittle butt,,,,lol,,,,lol

SH1T HAPPENS, and SH1T will still keep happening but WE have to HELP
each other out here at those times,,,and IF YOUR NOT HERE????
Who will talk to me about life??? LOL
YOU YOUNG LADY, HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS HERE,,,,DON'T TURN YOUR TWO BACK ON
YOUR FRIENDS,,,,WE NEED EACH OTHER TO FEEL THE STRESS
HERE,,,LOL,,,LOL

SONG, GET YOUR AZZ BACK HERE!!

GO READ THOSE POSTS LAST NIGHT!!

YES!! I QUESTIONED YOU WHEN YOU SAID NOBODY CARED ABOUT YOU??

&&&&& YES!!! I POSTED ON THE ONE A LIL WHILE EARLIER ABOUT BEIN
WHINY....

&&&&&&&& YES!!! I WAS THERE WHEN YOU WERE ON RESTRICTION!!


&&&&&&&&&& YES!!! I TALK TO YOU IN THE CHURCH!!

&&&&&&&&& THINK ABOUT IT!! YOU HAD GONE OFF WITH CODY, WHEN YOU CAME
BACK AROUND IS WHEN THE CSERS CAME IN SO DUH!!!
OF COURSE YOUR LIST IS GOING TO GROW!!

&&&&&&&&&& YES!!!!!! EVERYBODY IS HERE TO SAY SONG DON'T LEAVE WE ALL
LOVE YOU!!! HONEY!!

&&&&& did you answer my posts last night???

hell no!!!

all you thought of was poor beth, I'm picking on you..


now get your silly azz back here!!!


Don't make me call Dane to get on you!!!

WE LOVE YOU SILLY SONG!!!

{{{{{{{{{ Beth }}}}}}}}}}}

I am never to far,,,, Love you Sweetie

Well I'll tell you what, after the bulletin I saw you post on myspace,
you will get no sympathy from me at all.That was the most childish,
*****y and uncalled for thing I have seen in a long time.And don't go
telling me it's hormones, my ass. I use think that you were pretty cool
Song, but not any more that is for damn sure.

Well, Songbird, this thing of people replying to email is weird, you are
rights.

Rapunzel posted a few days ago asking why when someone looked at your
profile we didn't say anything. So I sent a 'thank you for looking at
my profile' email to several people. That was it, but one person came
back all huffed up, telling me that she wasn't interested in me at all
and how dare I email her? And saying that she hadn't viewed my
profile....it was pretty weird. Anyway, the point is that we haven't
all settled on the etiquette of JSH, and not everyone is polite in any
case (though one would think that polite was good on a dating site!)

But, in the end, genuine friendships are formed here. There IS a
community. There are genuine concerns and support exchanged.

Even though there may be a few weird things that happen, this is an
overwhelmingly genuine and friendly place.

I hope you will hang in here a while longer, and deepen those contacts
that you have had, and then broaden your friendships from there. Hang
out with the considerate, interesting folks -- and there are LOTS of
them here -- and ignore the few who aren't....

It's a pretty good deal, no?



Oceans