Mike. Again. Trying to decide whether to answer his most recent piece of criticism is worth my time. Not even sure I can respond politely except to say "I'm not a ****ing attorney or paralegal, I'm a goddamn secretary, it's YOUR ****ing job to know what's what, not mine! And considering you give me NO ****ING DIRECTION AT ALL what the **** am I supposed to do?" ****, I ask questions that they don't answer yet they turn around and say if I have a question I should ask? What's the ****ing point when they don't bother responding?

**** **** **** **** **** I HATE WORKING FOR HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok,, backing away slowly and hiding all the sporks,, and ammo,, and sharp pointy things,,,,,

Yeah, no kidding. And worse, he tells me "we've had this issue before" which is bull ****. We had the issue once, yes, but he told me it was Melissa and Chris' responsibility and they were the ones who changed things mid-stream. I did what I was supposed to do and they ****ed it up. Now, all of a sudden, it's my fault all along. And, to top it all off, I am the ONLY one in the firm who knows how to do what they need done. They don't want to do it manually, they want it automated. Well, then, if I keep ****ing it up, then someone else needs to figure it out so they quit coming to me.

ummm,, well,, i dont know what to tell you.

ahh i got it,, look at em and say,, im sorry,, i dont speak your language,,, could you speak something remotely human and not rectal ease?

Seriously. I don't know, I just keep thinking, maybe I should talk to someone about changing my assignment. Except this is a small firm and I don't really want the gossip either. Everyone would know and everyone would talk.

its not your fault he wants to blame everyone but the ones who need it.

Oh, and to top it off, I left my medication home, again. 2nd day in a row. I grabbed it and had it in my hand when boo came over. It apparently never made it to my purse.

do i need to go get it?

No, of course not. I'll survive. I just need to remember to get it back in my purse and quit taking it out.

yeah that would be helpful.

That's the thing. If I did something wrong, I'm fine with the criticism and with taking responsibility for it and whatever. But don't tell me I did it right then turn around 6 months later and tell I was wrong all this time. WTF is that about?

umm,, blaming anyone but the ones that need to be blamed

I suppose. I'm a little tired of it, though.

i would be too.

Oh well. I don't think I'm going to respond unless he says something directly. Then, I just hope I can keep my temper.

maybe he needs to see it.

Nope, cannot afford to get fired. And in law firms, no matter whether it was justified or not, I would take the fall for anything. They are not going to do anything to antagonize the people who bring in the money. I am a necessary expense, easily replaceable. This much I know.

ahh,, ok.

poor Remy's little puppy Lucky was killed by the neighbors dogs yesterday


it makes me feel helpless