Today I sobbed...


Went to a family reunion today. The family of my deceased
fiance', Marvin whom passed in ninetythree.
Seen alot of people there. Children grown up, with
children of their own. Sitting there I started to reminisce.
My thoughts filled with many things that I miss.
Wondering how my life, had come to be like this.


Kind of glad a couple of my kids had gone with me there too.
So I was able to hold it together for awhile.
The feelings I felt today just rocketed me right thru.
This must be the month for me and yesterdays I swear.
For on the tweenty seventh, eleven years ago my Mom had passed
away. Been really missing her. Marvin has been gone
sixteen years now. Over him I had shed many loving tears.
A true love, lost upon his death bed- all those years ago.


A few days back I seen my ex boyfriend with his new victum
(girlfriend) in tow. Wanted to warn her, but I'm not that kind of gal.
I was with him fourteen years on and off. That man though I loved him,
had caused me many different kind of tears. I found myself
jealous that day. Not cause I wanted him back, noway. I envied
the fact that he had found someone, and I had not.


I was glad to see my stepdaughters and my stepgrandkids
at the reunion today. Thankfull and gratefull I am still family to
them. Glad to see many there and did enjoy my day.
Yet when I got home, I sat there thinking how lonely I really was.
I guess I did'nt realize this, and because of this... I sobbed.




~teddy~
08-29-09

(Sorry needed to vent, thanks for letting me.)

Hugs.

{{{{{{{{{{Susan}}}}}}}}}}
A cyber HUGGGGGG for you.

sorry about your loss

awwwwwwwww.....


(((((S)))))

ohhhh hugs for you beautiful lady

Awww... you are such a kind lady... I hope tomorrow is a better day.... Hugzzzz and happiness Mzteddy

Much love and tenderness to you, ((((beautiful lady.))))

I carry you within, today and beyond.

Just hold on Mrs Teddy Bear- that among the sorrow you have felt over your loss, that you also hold a love in your heart many arent as fortunate to ever know. That kind of love exceeds beyond space and time. You will always be blessed to have known that love.

I am sorry your time together was cut short. I too have dealt with that heartache. My love passed in '91. Please accept my compforting thoughts and prayers being sent your way.

Sending some healing love and light hun.

Awe...hugs to you!

Ohhh my heart is with you today and many hugs to you as well! Hang in there!

Ohhhhhhhhh MsTeddy what a beautiful write and to you I'm sending a .............

you are such a special lady...may your day be brightened...and love find you smiling

It is amazing what a good cry, and a good nights sleep
will do for you.

Also what friends, hugs, and love do
for you too! {{{Bearhuggies}}}

Feeling better today. Thankyou all of you.