I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same.
~Gavin Rossdale

I heard this song for the first time tonight or this morning for me. We all seek it, this thing called love. But we all have different insights to what we call love. I mean growing up we had i guess you would say unconditional love from our parents. I dont know about you but if i base how i am to love someone off the example my parents gave me then i am in trouble. Maybe thats why i have a failed marriage and a failed engagement under my belt at age 23. I have been so caught up in needing someone to love that I forgot to look in my heart and figure out what love is. I have been doing some deep soul searching in the past couple of months. I realize i must love myself before i can love someone else. I have accepted myself. Instead of dwelling on the negative things i began looking at the negative in a new light. The negative in my life has made me the strong intelligent woman i am today. Now i can love me knowing where i come from and how i got here and i know how to fix the things that bring me down. Now i can love and enjoy someone to the capacity they deserve. Now i want to be happy i am no longer afraid to step out into the world. I know whatever happens i can bounce back from it.

Sounds like you are finding yourself. That is a good thing....