it's not really the "best" thing to do,
but I can't help acting just like the rest of you:

"I'd gotten so lost,
feeling guilty from missed opportunities
feeling guilty over imagined chances
I'd like sometime to tell myself "Hey, it's ok....it's ok...."
but the surcharge of BANALITY is such a bother to pay
I'd like sometime to say "Hey, I really wanna make a "difference"."
Well....they'd asked & I haven't been heard from since...."

it's not really the "worst" thing to do,
But I can't help feeling I don't give a damn about any of you:

"You'd gotten so confused, so lost,
clinging tenaciously to someones' "Surity Dream"
clinging tenaciously for a wasted, insidious paradox
You'd been telling me: "Hey, be just like this & it's ok...."
so how mch more time in BOREDOM must I play?
You say: "Hey, look just like this & you'll be the "difference"."
Well....I'd looked & they haven't asked again...."

it's not even the "only" thing to do,
but I can't help thinking maybe I really am just like all of you:

"We're really gettin lost, really f*cking confused & a bit overused
Screaming at the "CONTROLLER" in the skies,
Screaming under the weight of its imagined despise
It'll ask us to placate & say: "I'm saved....Hey!....i'm saved."
but "saved" from what? they will never proclaim
It'll ingratiate us to say: "The "difference" is better than men."
Yeah, right! They scream this everywhere I go, I want to INCEND...."

So....I don't get it,
it's not the "BEST",
it's not even the "WORST",
and won't ever be the "ONLY" thing to do,
Should it just be the same, the same as all of you.......?

Hey bro

It's ok....

It's ok.....

Seek only individuality,
Forget the duality,
Strive to be
Only
YOU!!!

Thank you both for reading.

Wonderfully expressed....

Thanks MzEm...where the heck you been? I miss ya!

I thought for some reason I needed to go back to school and believe me I have been kicking myself ever since LOL thank goodness it is online because I wouldn't make it LOL

Good to know I have been missed....

See, there's that smile I miss! Good luck with your classes, mine start Wednesday

Thank you, I will need it! I am sure you will do fine in your classes, good luck!