This post is for your deepest feelings and emotions: Poor out your soul and your Wisdom! BE the future Realist Knowing the truth and yet being blinded: How do you see Internet relationships? How do you here people talking about there memories? Good or Bad????

What is your most fondest memories that will last a life time Good or bad? Then add this to your reason you don't have someone in your life?


I am such a morning person: (memories)- When i was younger my father would wake me up at 4am to go to work with him on the construction site. It was the best time ever, He just loved spending time with his little girl. I use to love running up and down the 2 or 3 story homes, I use to love walking on the open beams. Using a hammer to see how many times it would take to get the nail in the wood.. IT took my dad.. ONE> TIME>>>> it took me ????? more then i can count...
Such fond memories......

Is there a differences between RE-MEMORIZING YOUR MEMORIES and Living your memories....

When a person talks about themselves, the do it to give a part of themselves to someone so the other person can RELATE to them. We do it so they can GET TO KNOW US and to SHARE a part of are life.

We live in such a world now a days of judgment and even the past can bite you in the butt. To Tell a strange person who you are, what your about, were you came from and the journey on it, to get you were you are today! Right now! it took all of this to make the person you are!

so to share this with someone tells them, I VALUE YOU... But most do not see it that way, they feel you live in the past, and tell you to get out of the past...

What is the differences between taking pictures putting them in a photo album. and re looking at them ever few years or months..

Here is the differences.

it is every few years...

if you are "talking still" about the anger and the pain that hurt you 25yrs ago, [then your living in the past]... If you can not seem to better yourself, your in the past. if you hate your job, hate your world and no one can deal with you because all you do is talk about who hurt you, who destroyed you and who was not there for you! Then your in the past.

NOW>>> the differences is this.... When you talk about the Past in a state of Re-remembrance, when you share a part of HISTORY....... The key>>>>> with someone when it is funny, or humorist, when it is a Good memories.. then it is in the right context.

so we can only be positive in the past, we are never to be negative.

So for all humans to be them self, to be loved and adored, to be adored and to have new and old friends, these people only talk about the GOOD, GREAT, FUN, HUMORISTS, THE SILLY, AND CUTE... Memories.

I got it.. and that was not clinical.. it is the truth.....

People don't like harsh mean and rude people, they don't like to hear all the problems, there is enough of that in the world. What we want to hear is the Good times. Like a Good movie that makes us laugh you remember it for ever, but a bad movie that makes you cry and makes you feel bad about yourself. This movie never hits the 1# charts.... NOW>>>> if it scares the hell out of us, then and only then dose it become famous??? figure that one out..

So we live on Fear... we want to be scared, we want to have the UNKNOWN....

THAT IS THE KEY... it was not Fear itself.. IT is the UNKNOWN.. WE ARE SCARED OF... WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT.

I never really understood the passage in the bible, be fearful of God! Why ???? Because if he is in the image of mankind, then i am to be Fearful of Mankind, my parents, friends, my children, the world at large.

NO>>>>> Be fearful of God! THE UNKNOWN! BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT "HE WILL DO NEXT"...... YOU can never see it coming...."until it happens" you never see death or love or the joy of a child until it happends, YOU can assume, you can analyze it too death until you make yourself crazy.. but in the end... The UNKNOWN! is the Fear we have over are self's.

As for me my fear.... Is To be alone... Funny " I was raised as a ONLY CHILD ALONE BY MYSELF!..Funny though even if i have God, and my children, and my parents... I have only internet friends, but I have no one in my life to live my life with to love every night to share my world with.

I can now understand why everyone is so scared.. We want a Key to a Humans Heart and soul. We want to give a Key to a humans heart and soul. But when no one wants your KEY>>> your (MEMORIES/ DREAMS/ ASPIRATIONS). Your life and family's life, your friends and your career.... Then What are we seeking then.

the unknown.. YOU wonder why women want what they call the (bad boys/girls)? it is because they are UNPREDICTABLE! We do not feel safe with them an at the same time we have a lot of fun, yet they hurt your heart and soul every time they turn your world up side down and destroy you as a human... but it was fun, it was crazy while it lasted.

But some people want the safe ride, the predictable people, the ones that are called (nerds) the workaholics of this country who care about human rights, who care about family and honor, who care about the other persons feelings and emotions.

And yet we want both. We want ONE person in are life to be wild and crazy at times and then Predictable at times so we can have that "SAFE" environment for are kids and family.

My out come!. We are fearful of Dieing, we are fearful of getting old and not living are life. We are fearful that if we love anyone they will be taken away forever so why? Ever love anyone at all.

Because! of one thing.. THE UNKNOWN! you DON'T KNOW IF YOU HAVE ONE DAY... or a hundred days or just a month.

What counts is you live that one day at a time with this person, get to know them inside and out, that means everything about them not just what you chose to hear... but the real them.

This is were my world is at. NO one wants to know ME>>>> they love my looks, they love what i have to offer them, but they do not ever want to know my soul. Who? I am inside of this body, what? i think and feel. What? my dreams are and what? I see is a future for the life i live. NO one! wants the day in and day out life, they only want the Fun, and Excitement of the UNKNOWN.. for a moment when it is over, they move on, and go to the next fascinating person. Leaving a broken heart and family, friends behind.

I say! "To hell with all of that", why not just be "CONTENT"... with the person you fell so madly in love with when you heard there heart, throw away the looks and the size, and the career, the past, the words and actions.. but! "hear".... "the person inside calling out too you" "telling you how much they want to be with you"....and yet you only want...???? nothing in return but a good time "RIGHT".....???

So what is dating for then.. a Good night stand....I have not had a relationship in almost 3yrs. because I will not feed into the UNKNOWN.. because I believe love is for ever not just a day, or week, or month but a life time of memories... To last.. while you walk on this earth "hand and hand"..