I know that I’m less a man without you, but don’t seem to know how to always conduct myself as a man with you. I have a guilt that will never go away and shame that I will own until my bones turn to dust. You are such a delicate balance of tenderness and POWER; I really know that I don’t deserve you at this point and maybe never did earn your trust.
I can only hope that in the time I have remaining in your presence that my future actions show you the respect everyday you are due.
I have no honor at this point as rotten I have been to you.
You’ve completed me for years now as Mother, Teacher, Lover, and Best friend.
I took this Blessing and trampled on it so, I have no right to complain about anything in the end.
I willingly accept any suggestions you have to help me become the person you once thought of as good.
Has the road we have traveled together for so long had more bumps than scenic woods?

I don’t think it has, but two sides of these memories exist.

I want you to be happy before me and with me and when I’m not happy, its bliss.

I get so excited inside my chest when you come home and I miss you feeling that way about me.
I don’t want to be the bad part of your day anymore and feel you need to be free.
I humbly ask forgiveness for the negativity, disrespect and drama I have added to your life.
With all you have to deal with on a regular basis I should have been supportive not only financially but emotionally during times of strife.
Open up my chest and flush the present façade from where once love was born and bred.
I don’t expect anything from this letter; it’s just an acknowledgement of what’s in my toxic head.

BK whomever she is, I hope she receives this letter of love with love...Be peaceful...

How can you know what you don't know?
You need answers, but all you hear is
the inside of your head. Do you worry?
I do, for a while. Join me.

Written by:
Alan Harris

Blessings to you Beautiful one,,,
Ya know,,, where sience lays,
the unspoken... comes alive

I don't sense toxicity here....only your purity of heart...the Love inside of you seeking to reconnect with the Love inside her

your letter seems a prayer

to you all

{{{brwnkimba}}}