You don't push people away, you seclude yourself in a place that you are comfortable with and don't venture out much aside from work...effectively a recluse. Once the feeling of alone fades, it doesn't come back, regardless of attempts to put somebody in your life.

Feelings are very tricky, you either have them or you don't there isn't really a way to go in the middle of them. I don't feel much anymore, physical or emotional...the physical bit is from my accident, the emotional bit is from lack of socializing. It isn't pleasant not being able to feel fear, anger, love, sadness, etc. again. Even less pleasant is not knowing how or if you ever will feel them again.

its me im very lonly

continuous, even though it may not hit me as hard as it likes to. the only way i see it to nip it is get a woman, hence one reason im on here.

I feel your pain!!! Music is an avenue that no matter kind it is, it soothes your pain. Lately, its been soothing my hurt and pain. But, this is a little different. I try to make time with women. Try to be a gentleman, but, they prefer the "thugs" as I call them. I have a friend that I will call "Latoya". She is sweet, when she wants to be. But, I am crazy about her. I am 34, and she is 23. So the age difference is there. Well,I try to be there for her. Pick her back and forth from work and home. Give her money for the city bus, take her to her mom's house to spend time with her. Basically, I am there for her, when no one gives a damn. I really want a relationship with her, but, she just blows me over. And, goes for the guys who don't give a damn. The "thugs"!!! The guys who have no job, car, or ambition. She recently lost her job and apartment over these guys! I try to do whatever I can to help, but, I want more. I want her to be with me. But, she prefers to spread her legs for these guys, and assumes she's in love. Only to be broke and lonely because of them. She got mad at me today, because I would not let her drive my jeep. She gets mad at me for silly things, but, not mad at the people who put her in her position. I had to go to work, and I could not do it. I would give anything for her!!! I have gave her and done anything in my power that I could do. But, no appreciation from her end. I feel like a jackass!!!! When she was down, I helped her get up, even helped get her out of jail. And, this my thanks!!! I don't know what to do? But, I feel your pain!!!!

Again, I hope this changes for the better for you also.

much appreciated, but i doubt it will happen anytime soon

No Doubt is an American rock band from Anaheim, California, founded in 1986

The X-Files, Scully. The X-files.

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fµcked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

Lately, I’ve been in a strange mood and have even whined about it to a few people. I know part of it has to do with confusion over some new emotions I don’t know how to deal with, but there’s also been this underlying thing that I just couldn’t seem to put my finger on.

I think I’ve finally figured it out. Music is sort of a therapy for me and I am known to listen to a song over and over for hours on end until I feel the message has sunk in. I listen to songs as reinforcement for how I feel about things (Eaten By the Monster of Love by The Sparks as a reminder of what to avoid), for a positive outlook (All Fired Up by Pat Benetar as a reminder things happen for a reason and for the best), etc. as well as the usual reasons (need good cleaning music, need to just cry it out, want to dance my tushy off, etc.). Sometimes, though, I’ll find myself listening to something repeatedly without consciously choosing it.

Anyway, for the past week I’ve been so preoccupied with trying to figure out the other “thing” that I hadn’t paid much attention to what I’ve been listening to. That changed when my sister said, “For crying out loud, just go find someone!” I had no idea what she was talking about until she pointed out that she was ready to slit my wrists for me if I didn’t “stop playing that damned song”.

Here’s the kicker… I am surrounded by people at work, I go hang out with different friends almost daily, and I talk to a few people fairly regularly on here. But I guess I’m still lonely. Go figure! I always say I feel alone around most people because most people I know view things so different from me, but I’ve never really felt ‘lonely’ before.

Has anyone else gone through this? How do you make it go away?

I’m out for the evening, but considering how people have responded to the other two times I whined about something on here, I’m guessing that by the time I come back on again this one will have some responses as well. Most likely, most will be sarcastic and funny, but I’m hoping for some helpful advice.

Not lonely.

But yeah alone.

No, your not, I'm here.

Thanks