MzWizard & Sharris,Maybe you would prefer my pre- retribution writes such as thiswhen I didn"t know for sure her final infidelity,this in my moping stage, when the advise to me on here was to move on with my life.I did.

" I NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE "

Why do I sigh, when I look in your eyes, of your picture, I keep,in my heart.
Why do I cry, when I gave you my life, and you promised, till death do us part.

I don"t know why, you left, but you did, and now we have broken apart.
Only YOU, knew why, when you did, and you knew, it would break my heart.

If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true, as it was with our very first kiss.
If only I knew, that your love wasn"t true,for now, its your love, that I miss.

Sitting around now, all day on my own, never a call, from you, on the phone.
I do really miss you,so cute,so small, I need someone, to love, and not be alone.

But I do really miss, your affection, lots of kisses, and the abundance, of love.
When, we first met, I thought you, were sent to me, from the heavens above.

I, now have realised, living with me, wasn"t easy,easy for you.
Me being so much older, and set in my ways, as well too.

But, I did try to conform, with your views, on the way we should live our lives.
And still, I did not take heed, of your warnings, I failed you, I was not wise.

I did my best, for your welfare, so our love, to grow ever, so strong.
I thought it had,especially, when the children, all came along.

I look at them now, every day,even more so, than I ever, did before.
But I look at them now, at their pictures, their pictures, on the wall.

Its wonderful to see, the you, the me, and the sparkle, in their eyes.
Their beaming smiles that radiate, to me, to you, is their love, its in disguise.

But, every time I look, I can always feel, theres always something, missing.
Then, I very soon realise, its the laughter, the crying, the hugs, and the kissing.

Theres, one word, they always said, that I never, hear no more, dad, dad, dad.
Its no wonder, why I am always, very unhappy, distraught, and feeling sad.

I really need somebody, I need somebody to love.
I really need somebody,I need somebody to hug.

I think of the time, we were all, doing fine, our love flowed and ebbed like a tide.
I think of the time,when I gave,you,the ring and said,one day,will you be,my bride

We were so happy, both of us were,why, did our love forever disappear, and wash all away, as though down, through the drain.

Can"t get your love, right out of my head, but, I must get it out, out of my brain.
If I don"t get it out, I will end up, completely mad, completely mad, insane.

I really need to find somebody, find somebody to love,
Find somebody to kiss, find somebody to hug,

I lay awake, every night now, can"t sleep, nice and tight, like I did when you were, lay next to me.

Theres always so much on my mind now, can"t take it, right out, and away, so that I finally can realise, what must be, must be.

I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from being so sad.
I do, really need somebody, somebody to stop me, from going mad.

I"m grieving I know, its because you, had to go, when you said,your love for me wasn"t there anymore.

I really need somebody, a new somebody, will soon give me the cure.
I know I need somebody, a new somebody, will love me, more and more.

And when she comes, comes to me, with all her love, in her arms, in her arms, for me, I will hear her knock,knock,knock at the door .

I will then, be happy again, take her love, till the end of days, and never, want you again in my life, from then, to evermore.

All the pain I have suffered, will be finally gone, and I will be happy again I know.
I will soon have my new somebody, and when she"s here, she will never go.

I just wait for that day, when she comes here to stay, I will be, so happy and glad.
I will never again, be so distraught with the pain, and never again be sad.


RAYMOND.25/12/08

So happy you are able to move on.

It has been said.."It is more blessed to give, then to receive"
you are wished well on your journey.

This was written on 25/12/08,before TO BE OR NOT TO BE, I moved on to retribution.

When retribution has been served to those, I will revert back to my former loving self.

Retribution for not loving you. Good lord. How petty and pathetic. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind at this point as to WHY you were left. Jesus.

Someone smack me if I EVER read another one of these asinine threads. Please.

smacks her...nudges her in tha butt!!

MzWizard,all I can say to your last remark is, why have you been on here for 2yrs? looks like youv"e been left.

Get your eyes checked Grandpa. If you look at my profile you'll see that I am not here looking for love. There's a reason why. And you'll never know what it is. Unlike you, I dont feel the need to spew my personal life all over this board. The ugliness you've thrown out here time and time again about that poor child you took to wife is ridiculous. I say good for her. I can only imagine what life with a self righteous puritan would be. And I have a great imagination. It wouldnt be pretty.

MzWizard, your very personal and nasty,you will get your just deserves, for your nastiness to people whose situations you don"t even know about.,and for the record I did not choose her, I prefered an older partner at the time,she convinced me to take her on because she was into a lot of bad things at the time,one being a slapper as she was slapping it about that much she wanted me to change her ways,add I did for 13yrs.
I WILL NOT REPLY TO ANY OF YOUR NASTY POSTS.BYE

Excuse me. I'd say I know far more about your "situation" than I care to given the fact that you have DONE NOTHING BUT SPEW IT ALL OVER THESE BOARDS IN THE UGLIEST WAY IMAGINABLE SINCE YOU FIRST GOT HERE.

Get a real life. I dont care if you respond or not. You have some nerve calling ME personal and nasty after all the nasty vengeful crap you have posted about this woman and your children.

If I were you, I'd invest in some kevlar underwear because karma is certainly going to take a bite out of YOUR azz for these posts.

A word to the soul. One seeking retribution is not one who as moved on. In my experience such things serve none but the demons inside and fuel only continuation of the pain.

I wish you luck in your recovery as I do your former love. But I won't be reading any more of your posts. I've no taste for such things.

Mr Happy I find it necessary to speak out for MsWizard althoug she needs no one to come to her defense. She is quite capable of taking care of herself. What I will say is I have personally met her and have become friends with her. For those who know her they know her to be a woman of high values and a very honorable woman.

As to her being here for two years that has no bearing on anything. She has her goals in life and one of those is to share her very creative self with those she cares about. Posting her poetry here allows others to read her work and in many ways they gain insperation from her work.

Believe me she does not need to be here. She has other places she can be where her honor does not get attacked.

You are kind and caring, she will thank you, as she is a beautiful woman
I thank you as well

Thank you Sharris and you are very welcome.

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