Rough Divide


The world I live in, keeps on moving
It continues to move further and further away from me
Surroundings change, people change, things grow even colder than before
The world continues to move, continues to move onwards
without me...

A rusted Anchor am I, casted into the deep black sea
Drifting here for minutes, hours, days, years...
Drifting here forever, in the mind of my own
Upon the opening of my eyes, upon the closing of my eyes...
I ask myself over and over again..what am I waiting for?...

Maybe it's true, not everyone belongs in this world
While such great spirits die for unjust cause,
While such great minds decay in rotting cells
This bastard right here, right now lives
Upon his thrown of emptiness.

A rusted anchor long since forgotten, ever so gently whithering away...
Am I really waiting for that moment? that time in the end?
Where that hole will finally open...
I count in my head the steps I take, the breathes I take, the beats of
my heart
Until suddenly, it will stop...

The last exhale of a being that never really existed...
Does it matter? to this world that continues to move onwards without
me?..
Maybe for a second...a day...maybe even so...
Until everyone realizes, that I never existed in the first place

I guess I am just waiting for that moment
For this bastard to be taken away from this world that continues to grow
Because a bastard like me, will only hinder this world
As I take my last breathe upon that day...
It will be the first and last second..
That I actually lived...and moved with the world

Powerful words,,, You are needed in this world
my many,, family and Friends and by Friends you
have not even met yet,,,

Hugs to you,,, If you need to talk I am an email away
{{{{ Ahalo }}}}}

Thanx for the kind words...I suppose a lot has happened in my life, as
has happened in any other person's life. I'll take that offer, as it's
always a pleasure to meet a new person.

Here is another poem I wrote years ago.

Enjoi

"Flight of The Lonesome Hawk"


Sometimes I get caught up in the scenery...
the birds, the sky, the atmosphere and everything within it...
just being caught up..in my own meaningless thoughts..
someday..these won't be just thoughts...
you'll see a lonesome hawk..
soaring above and beyond the skies...
looking down on everything...
watching his scenery go by...
teardrops streaming down his beak..
as he flies away...
saying goodbye...
to everything and anything he ever knew...

I never wanted to be alone...
It was just something that happened...
curled up in a tiny ball...
crying in the emptiness of it all..
I never asked to be alone...
painful thoughts are all thats shown...
I never liked being alone...
Its just something I had to live with...

Every so often..the light glistens upon my soul...
But the light sees nothing to save...nothing worth the effort...
so it walks away..
just like everything else...

and just so people don't get the impression that I've never smiled in my
life lol. Here is a less intense one that was written when I was happy.

"Castle In The Sand"

..I will come for you someday...and take you by the hand..
...Together we can live...in the castle in the sand...
...We can fly through the night..
.....And even through the clouds.....
..Nothing can stop this moment..
................In the castle in the sand.................

These are deep, moving and beautiful words...
Very intense!
Glad you shared them all...
I am personally looking forward to more...

I was getting ready to go to sleep and stop in to see if
you were on I am glad I did,, You have a Soul that is so
alive and growing, such passion in your words,,, My arms
are wide open and my ears are here for you,,, Thank you
for letting me in your world,,, It is really an Incredible
place to be,,, for I have seen part of you a part that may
not seem to be full of light,,, yet it is willing to see,
God Bless,,, My Friend,,, God Bless

{{{{{{{{ Ahalo }}}}}}}}}

Thank You

Thanx mom and country girl..I'm sorta new here...so I'm not sure what to
do as far as posting here. If I want to add more poems, do I start a new
topic for each poem? or should I just keep adding to this topic I
started? Thanx for helping me out.