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I am a 37 year old woman who has a full time job, a 4 year old child and has been married three times (once right out of high school - ended in divorce; once 5 years after my divorce but he was killed 6 months later in a car wreck and once again but am getting a divorce). I have my own home and car, pay my own bills and am a great mother. I am responsible, have a good head on my shoulders & am a good person. I spend my days waking in the morning, heading out & dropping my daughter off at school, then work until 5:00 at night, where I get home, cook, give her a bath & play until her bedtime. Then, I escape. I get online to meet with & chat with people, some who have come to be very good friends. I have kept my walls up for so long - not letting anyone in and then I do. Now, I get a guilt trip from my parents that i am loosing my focus on what is important - all that I have....everything, they call it. Well, it isn't everything! It is alot, I am very, very blessed, but they don't understand that I am still human and I need that human connection, a shoulder to lean on, someone to make me feel alive. Now, my parents won't speak to me and to make matters worse, I haven't heard from that other person in a while . I know he is busy and has his life, but the little peace on earth I have found feels like it is slipping away. I miss him.
I feel all alone. |
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I am a 37 year old woman who has a full time job, a 4 year old child and has been married three times (once right out of high school - ended in divorce; once 5 years after my divorce but he was killed 6 months later in a car wreck and once again but am getting a divorce). I have my own home and car, pay my own bills and am a great mother. I am responsible, have a good head on my shoulders & am a good person. I spend my days waking in the morning, heading out & dropping my daughter off at school, then work until 5:00 at night, where I get home, cook, give her a bath & play until her bedtime. Then, I escape. I get online to meet with & chat with people, some who have come to be very good friends. I have kept my walls up for so long - not letting anyone in and then I do. Now, I get a guilt trip from my parents that i am loosing my focus on what is important - all that I have....everything, they call it. Well, it isn't everything! It is alot, I am very, very blessed, but they don't understand that I am still human and I need that human connection, a shoulder to lean on, someone to make me feel alive. Now, my parents won't speak to me and to make matters worse, I haven't heard from that other person in a while . I know he is busy and has his life, but the little peace on earth I have found feels like it is slipping away. I miss him. I feel all alone. I feel that way sometimes too. |
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It doesn't help I have the flu and am being a whiny a**. Sorry.
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Thank you mom...I would have been fine if I hadn't watched "Nights in Rodanthe" and cried like a spanked baby... |
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i too am alone a lot. people deal with solitude in different ways. chin up, you have your kids and you have your family and you have us!
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i too am alone a lot. people deal with solitude in different ways. chin up, you have your kids and you have your family and you have us! Thank you - I will quit bellyaching now. I appreciate the opportunity to vent. |
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i also feel the same at times. you always have someone to talk with , on Mingle. (day or night)
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Single parents need love too.....geeez!!
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I need a hug smiley, because you sound like you can use one... |
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try drinking beer and throwing the empties at them.......this works in most cases
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I need a hug smiley, because you sound like you can use one... |
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try drinking beer and throwing the empties at them.......this works in most cases I strongly recommend this |
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aww, you seem really together and all, i so hope things get better for u....you deserve it!
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Thank you to each of you. Sometimes it is just nice to hear someone say, "you are doing a good job & I understand" instead of "you're doing a good job, BUT......"
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A young lady in one of my classes told me that she cries everyday. I dont cry much although I feel like I am crying on the inside sometimes
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A young lady in one of my classes told me that she cries everyday. I dont cry much although I feel like I am crying on the inside sometimes |
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stop crying mirror hows ur new love?
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stop crying mirror hows ur new love? I fall in love all over again every time I look in the mirror |
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Sometimes I feel like life is nothing but suffering. One bad thing after another.
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