have any of you ever felt like... you just fail at life? like every decision you make is wrong... you do nothing but bring down the people around you... where you're afraid to hang out with the amazing, nice new guy you met because you're afraid you will somehow make their lives worse like you do to everyone elses... like the world would just be better off if you were never in it...

i just wish i knew how to cope with these feelings...

ignore them... focus on more positive things. Never be afraid to try....

Of all the words of tongue or pen,
the saddest are those...it might have been.

Sorry, you are feeling so down on yourself. Am aware that at such times it is often easier said than done...ease up on yourself. Find something you accomplished and focus on that.

You can always talk to a doctor or friend, some one who might be able to help gives you some answers if not offer you some advice etc. If all else go to Church and pray.

thanks... i'm just in areally bad spot right now... and i thought about going to a therapist... but my insurance doesn't cover it... and i'm an agnostic...

Erin....

Life will get better girl....hang in there. If you need to talk...email me.

Your only 19. You cant expect to have everything. I takes time.

All the time!! I had to quit stressing myself about it though. Ended up sitting down and realy thinking things through.What did I do? How could I have done different and would things have been better?Reset my goals and wants.Figured out what was the most important. This realy helped.What also helped was talking this over with friends and family for help and support. Got some realy good advise. Just don`t give up!! You can do it!!!!

I have been there a lot, and to be honest, when you have those thoughts in your head, do somthing to take your mind off them... I have a lot of skeletons in my closet and one has really ****ed up my life, and for the rest of it. Take up somthing positive, like gardening. I am bi-polar, and theres been many days I've just thought that everyone would be better off without me, and itas painful.
I have also recently learned the hard way that the only people you have and can really trust are your family and it sucks ass. You see all these movies and tv shows with people who have close friends from way back when and you want that, but its a farse. But anyway, just try to keep busy, and think of all the good you've done for people in life and how you have made people smile... I sounds like you shouldn't be in a relationship, and maybe just get to know you. As I said I'm doing that right now..I'm just on here to see whats out there and possibly have a date sometime. I've had my head played with by both guys and girls in relationships and it sucks.
But anyway,
I've gotten closer to my family in the past few weeks, and December is a hard month for me. Though I don't agree with all that is taught, church and religion has some positive things in it to help. Try volunteering, and surround yourself with positive people... Take a college class.Anyway, if you ever want to talk,drop me a line on here. I have a good ear, and hopefully can be of use to you. Hope this helps... your not alone.

I wish I could say I understand what's going on and through your life but I don't.

I know you've probably heard about this before but every body is facing tough / hard times right now, it's not easy and it's probably going to take time to get out of these tough times.

But you just have to try not to think about it as hard as that might be and or sound etc.

STOP BELIEVING IN THEM

first of all,..your feelings and what`s really goin on are two very different perspective`s,..

there are NO wrong decisions,..

you are powerless over other people and how they feel,..

it sounds to me,..you grew up being the victim of somebody else`s alcohol abuse,..and they`ve used you as a scape goat,..blaming you for everything that went wrong in their lives,.

have you ever heard of Al anon ?

I use to feel that way all the time. Then one day I had a brakethrough, I stopped talking to my mother..Haven't felt that way since.

thank you all so much... my life is just so screwed up... i just broke up with my fiance (i think Puffins is the only one on here who might even begin to know how much he mean to me, if she can remember how we were even back when we first met)... and... we finally sat down today and decided he needs to move out... and we started talking about the past... and i finally gave him back my engagement ring... and he brought up how happy i was when he gave it to me... and how the sales rep we bought it from dropped it, and i had this ring set aside for weeks and weeks... and we couldn't find it... and finally it just turned up on the floor... and things like that... thinking baout the good times hurts way more than thinking about the bad... and it just made me realise how many lives i turned upside down when i moved out here to be with him... i ruined his lives, his parents, my family... a lot of people...

i always do that... i try to be happy, and hurt everyone else in the process...

thats really not it... i came from an amazing family... they have shown me nothing but care and love... but i have just always felt that i brought them down...

Does your employer have a EAP provider? Some insurances will not cover counseling but do cover an Employee Assistance Program. Which is weird because they are the same thing.

You could also check with some local counselors and see if they have a sliding fee scale.

You could also talk with your Doc.

thanks... i think we do have that... and i will be alright... thank you all... i guess i just needed to vent a little...

thats really not it... i came from an amazing family... they have shown me nothing but care and love... but i have just always felt that i brought them down...


in what way ?

we are all responsible for our own actions & feelings,.

no one can put nothing on you,.can they,.?

no one can ruin your life,..can they ?

no... and i'm not trying to blame anyone else... just me... i don't know how to explain what it is i'm trying to say...

hun don't be discouraged,if we r al honest with ourselves there is not a man or woman that walks this earth who hasnt messed up..and if they say they havent then im sorry their liars...whats important is theres always something to learn from situations in life and its what u do with what u have discovered that counts...just keep standing and be encouraged,dont allow the circumstances or anyone hold u back from the good things that lay ahead for u...dont let your past control your future hun...all the best..