well the birth of my first daughter definitely changed my whole outlook
thats for sure and the loss of my sister when she was 25 was the other.

so sorry scotty

The birth of my twins...I found out at 30 weeks I was having twins and
had them 7 weeks later...Then raising them on my own since they were 2
while working full-time and going back to school!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kim, the hardest thing in my life for sure was the death of my wife
after a long and difficult illness. We did make the most of it, though,
and eked out some good times despite what was happening.

To her:
Oceans

Thanx Tulip, hey I didn't know you were mime LOL

occeans and native thank you for your stories.


scotty lmao this is in the name of dating men love....

cosmetics and men""rotf

Looking down the wrong end of a loaded 30.06 rifle with my screaming
drunk husband on the other end yelling that he was going to kill me -
told me for sure that I needed to get my daughter and I away from him,
that he would never change. It took me five years to finally do it
after that night (a long story), and many more instances of abuse, but I
think that one really was the attention getter, the one that told me he
absolutely could and would kill me. Raised our daughter by myself from
the time she was 5 y/o. Turned our lives around. Funny thing is, he is
dead, booze killed him at 45, alcoholic cardiomyopathy.

Well done, Marie. It took courage, I am sure -- and you did it!

Oceans

Thanks Oceans, had to grow a backbone big time, but got us out of there.
Now am a granny to those two beautiful babies in the picture there.

marie you are alucky woman indeed there was an angel by your side that
day....

DV a whole new topic......

marie...

been there... and, I am in awe of your spirit.

From childhood rape to an abusive husband who pulled a gun on me at
least twice a week and held our son hostage til the cops would leave. To
being a drug addict and seeing too much negatives in my world. To the
loss of two of the most awesome loves of my life. Having everything I
could ever need, and losing it all. Living on the streets and getting up
again.

Some say I am full of it: Well, I say this; No I was full of it, and
myself. From that little paragraph up there, was my intire life til
about 10 years ago. I now have a much brighter and loving, forgiving
attitude about life and all it's glory. I made a promise to myself and
my sons, and my God that I would always see the good and always try to
be the best that I can be. To be there for those that need help and
never turn my back on my friends.

There is positive from negative forces. My way that I live my life, it
just comes natural now.
Kat

Thanks Tulip and ET.

Wow, Kat, what incredible strength and spirit you have. You're amazing.

It's built in honey. We all have it. We just have to find it. And hold
on to it.
Kat

Kat you brought tears to my eyes. hugs kat


people..sometimes ugh...


who raises these monsters.....

So goes life my friend. We either learn from it...or we die from it.

Waking up on the 5th floor and staying there for 2weeks. Then same time
next yr finding out that my husband at the time had done some aweful
things to my two older daughters (he's currently in prision on two
count's)right under my nose. Moved north and finally realizing how
mentally abused I had been (very embarrasing) by him. Got a divorce. Was
raising my two youngest by myself, which I had never been on my own much
less hadn't worked for 12yrs pior. Kinda had a nervous breakdown, DHS
got involved said they would help. Kids went into Foster Care. The
second Foster home they were in Physically abused the both of them. They
went to a third home and the woman decided she did't want my older one
because of his ADHD, ODD w/learning disibilities but would keep my
younger one.
I was in a homeless shelter at the time with
no job. Got a break (this is Jan 16,05)got a job through a temp agency,
a month later got housing through sec8, two weeks later got my kids
back. I worked 2nd shift for the next 9mths...Never saw my kids and when
I did all I wanted to do was sleep. I finally gave up as my parents
hoped I would because they really wanted to be there and help me and my
kids out. I finally moved back down here Dec 16,05. It is the best
decision I've ever made. I don't have to be so stressed out and can
spend the quality time I need to with my kids, especially after all we
have been through. I didn't realize how much support I was missing while
living up there. I definatly see things in a different light. Every
moment is cherished.

thank you mesheep that was a huge share ......


ty and hugs

Thanks tulip. It's not over but as far as i'm concered things can only
get better from here!

Way to go meeshep. Sometimes we just have to step out of our lives to
see the light, huh? Your rainbow was your own parents.
It is so good to see that you are happy and that you are living life.
Don't let life dictate you. You dictate what your life is going to be.
Bless you and your daughters.
Kat