raining

i sat alone as the movie went right by me
popcorn wasting away on the seat to my right
i can't remember what i came see
that's when they turned on those blaring lights

outside it was raining as i slowly walk back home
those cars rolling to places i can only dream of
up ahead is that old court house's towering dome
where i lost the very best piece of my love

i watch the sidewalks gleaming surface for any sign
for a drop of that one thing that could save my heart
i move on through this wetness alone now for all time
wondering how i lost such a wonderful part

stoplights and parked cars help hide this look in my eyes
out here in this small country town someone is so alone
waiting for this moment and moving traffic to rush on by
hoping i don't trip over one of these loose wet cobblestones

i know i just can't cry but I'm still so full of shame
as i walked to a place where sleep won't find me tonight
there's no hope in any of these drops of rain
as i catch them one by one in this dim street light

somewhere out there in that great beyond
where rain doesn't touch her anymore
does she have a magical wand
that helps her forget all our before's

thunder rolls ahead of me shaking my heart one more time
in that moment everything did change for me
as i cross through that broken crosswalk line
it wasn't this lighting that scared me

I'm so tired of just being here
with only this rain to help me heal
no one seems to want to hear
the splashing of all these spinning wheels

how do i fight away all these down pouring fears
those that linger hidden in all my thoughts tonight
how do i dry away all this rain hiding my tears
under this one accusing streetlight

maybe I'll be able to weather this nightly storm
just one more time
as i listen to the rain's steady moan
here in my mind

it's raining here in paradise just on me
as i walk this slow walk back to a place i don't like
it's raining here in paradise but no one else can see
as i pray for that thundering lighting strike

i sit alone as this movie goes right by me
as my love is wasting away in that seat to my right
i still remember what i came wishing to see
that's when someone turned on reality's light