There´s much to say about my feelings for her. She´s a friend, nothing more, unfortunately.
She hates me cuz i keep ´disappearing´ on her. Or so she says. She says I run from her, that´s not true.
I leave cuz I can´t handle being around her words of other guys she dates, or wanna date.
Cuz I listen to her speak of feelings she aint got for me.

She´s my everything, my support, she´s my water reaching shoulders, so close.
Her touch puts me to sleep, the only one who got that ability.
I want more, she does not. I think. No, I know she do not want more than a friendship.
We got close ones, kissed ones. She felt nothing and I hid my true feelings, said I felt nothing as well.
A lie to fit the situation.

She inspires me.
Never wanted me to be different, didn't wanna change me.
We lived together and slept in the same bed.
Massaged each other, covered one another in paint and laughed through late nights.

I love her, and I hate her.
I miss her, and dismiss her from my mind. Its simply to hardcore emotions to deal with.
There´s no words which can describe the love I have for her.
Writing this is just not enough.

I can speak of her beautiful blue/green eyes, light brown hair and her perfect body size.
Her laughter that always comes from the heart.
Her soft fingers through my hair, her tender lips and her scent.
I can speak of this. but it will never suffice.

I wanna tell her I love her, that I need her.
But I don't wanna ruin a 10year long friendship,
So I chose to flee from her presence.
I chose to ruin it so its fixable.

that's kinda sad man. almost reminds me of a friend i used to have like that....

yeah. I think a lot of people have been through this situation. And it really do suck!

"I love her, and I hate her
I miss her, and dismiss her from my mind."

great!! love isn't always easy

Thats very true, we just try and make it up to be sometimes. =)

well that is just heartbreaking

=) Not that bad anymore, this is an old piece. =)