You blamed me for your weakness
And now you blame me for your strength..?!
For 6 months you pushed and begged me
After 8 months I answered your plea and told you my story
~
For two hours the words was on me
For two hours you were speechless
And I knew you were oblivious to my world
Perhaps now you understand the foolishness of your curiosity
~
I could see you were in awe as the tears ran silently from the corner of your eyes
I only did what you asked
And you left a man apart behind cuz you couldn't grasp a past as mine
For such insensitivity I shall shatter your iced heart
~
Words will never suffice the pain you inflicted upon me
The day you were no-longer present or reachable
But I'll say it the only way I know how to
I shall share the darkest path of my soul with you:
~
I gave you a place in my heart and you wired it with Semtex
I told my deepest secrets and biggest regrets
My swamped days with liquid and illusionary chemicals
Was that the reasons which had you flee?
~
Was it my days living in a suitcase?
My uncontrolled anger and now subdued pains?
Perhaps it was the rulings of judges
And my way to cope with a sentence?
~
I don't hate you, I loathe you
I feel sorry for your narrow mind
That you can't see beyond coffee and Unicorns
And that you think my past would cause issues in the current present
~
They say there are plenty of fish in the sea
But they don’t warn about Stingrays like you
So calm and at ease with a floating love
Blinded by your beauty whilst forgetting your poison
~
You put question-marks on my scars
Even though you knew the truth would hurt
You still had to have what you never really wanted
And I paid the price for your ignorance of bliss.

(This is my own piece published October 2008)

So people don't reply or read this because its too long. thats so very sad.

That's probably not why they are not commenting. I post very long poems quite often and they are always read and commented on.

May I ask where this piece was published?

Careful what ya wish for PDA.

Ohhhhhhhhh my

I have read it twice and will say you have a way with words,,,

I am in a bit of a pissy mood this morning, so I will leave you with
A Hug, and welcome you to our home,,,

A pissy mood? Not LA Mom!

Have lunch with me tomorrow! :)

My only stipulation. You would have to be UNpissy.

Great Write!

Nothing is too long or too short. As long as it comes from your heart thats all that matters. Some people like to ask for opinions on their writes. Thats like jumping tandem to me. It's fun! But Pulling your own ripcords is mmmmmm, I don't know, lol! I bet it's amazing. I only jumped once and it was tandem. Hahahaha!

Ohhhh UnPissy Sheshhhhhhhhhhhh thats is so asking for alot,,,

Lunch I so wish,,, How bout a rain check lets say the week of Thanksgiving will be in Pasadena then

Sounds good to me




the obsessive banana banana thats a funny word banana

Sorry Op we got a bit off topic,,

Kiss's

Thanks for posting, some days things get viewed more than others, and a lot of people don't write comments. I've had a couple of pages of comments and sometimes none...don't read a lot into it. Welcome!!!

loved the line -"You put question marks on my scars"

It was published in a Finnish newspaper last month. And I have a new one coming up in the same newspaper in about 2 weeks.

Thank you very much. And I think I have a way with words considering I don't have English as my first language. =)