The sound of my heart beats in my ears
It deafens me amplifying my fears
There I was trying to go outside
But I just stood there and openly cried

Out in public I stand and shake
How can I beat this what will it take
I used to love people going out to dance
Now the fear is gripping and I don't stand a chance

It takes some force to go out that door
I don't know if I can take much more
I'm trapped in the house all day and night
I'm feeling like this is a losing fight

Is there help out there for someone like me
Or some knowledge that can set me free
The more that I look the deeper I get
I'm traveling this wire minus a safety net

Do you reall care about what I feel
Do you think I'm lying or see this is real
I know you will never truly understand
But please say you'll try and hold my hand

My hand is extended to you my dear. I will always be here if you need someone to talk too or you need that hand to pull you up. Never give up sweetie.

Thank you (((Robert)))

So good to see you!

Not giving up just needed to speak the words so I don't get so bogged down with the emotions that go with them.

very powerful emotion- sending good thoughts your way

Awww Vicki, you know I am always near..

(((PKD))) You always say the sweetest things! Thank you so much for taking the time and for the good thoughts!

Hello my friend! Thank you... Good to see you today but a bit surprised. (((Daniel)))

Come ere you,, they say there is safety in Numbers,, Holding you

I got mixed emotions here Vicki...
in one hand i'm happy to see you post and back on line and the other i'm sad for your pain!!!!! If theirs anything you need just let me know!!!

Yeah, work is slow right now, and since I am the only one that hasn't been made to take a day off. well this time it was my turn, figured I would pop in and see what I may have been missing..

Thanks (((Mom)))


(((Bill))) No tears for this! I just have to get it out sometimes and this is what happens when I do. If I could always be happy and never let others see this side of me I would but I am only human after all.

And you picked the one day when I post something sad like this

Nice to be here at the same time we haven't done this for a long time!

Maybe it was because you needed some cheering up.. good to see you too sweetie..

Beautiuful write; raw humanity. May you always feel the Love of those who surround you and hold you

(((J))) You are wise, sweet, and one of the kindest people I know! Thank you kind lady!

Nice to see you here.

Hope you find comfort amungst friends

Thanks (((Kevin)))

This is my comfort and my release and I couldn't ask for better friends!

"You put one foot
in front
of the other" (Santa Clause Is Coming to Town) the Warlock had the same problem, remember?

A litany rolls through your brain
yes, keep talkin, I'm okay
I'm truly truly sane.

As the words keep talkin
your feet, they start the walkin
and baby, feeeeeel that sun
upon your face.

You know ya gotta keep movin
cause the smile you bring
causes groovin
in all the people you meet
outside-a your place.

You know you gotta do this
cause you're too nice
to with-hold your you-ness
from all of those
you brighten with your grace!!!!!

I am, I matter, and I can!!!!!!

I so LOVE you Lady!!!!!

Thanks for the wonderful words and the add is amazing! (((DKOW)))

Love you too!!!!!