so here goes.. hi my name is josh (insert group meeting response)i am 20 years old and i had a plan for my future..i met the one girl of my dreams here in north carolina moved in with my dad so i could be with her....6 months went by and i asked her to marry me...and so my pla was working...i started school toget a career for her...started to plan the wedding...and then it happened...9 months i gave...my whole soul i gave...i gave her my all...yet she left me..all my plans were shatttered three weeks ago...i dont know what i am doing anymore..i dont know what to think....i feel as if i am drowning....but i am high dry..i am in my own personal hell. made up of confusion pain lonliness and hatrd...i can feel the cold and apathy seep into my viens..i dont know what to do anymore...i need a heping hand.....so i live concord...go to school for eltronics engineering..i listen to alot of metal...and i could use some companionship and dating...but i have gotten shy around girls in real life. so thatsme....looking for an alternative clingy..touchy feely kind of girl cause that the kind of guy i am.plus i am a hopeless romantic

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Love hurts.

Look at it this way you are only 20 years old..You have your whole life ahead of you and she was obviously not the girl for you..Be lucky she did'nt leave you after you were married and had kids...I know that"s not what you want to hear right now but for every bad there is a good....

Good luck to you and think on the positive side....

Hell if I can get a man there is hope for everybody on this planet

I am so sorry that this has happened to you. You are very young and when the time is right in your life, you will meet the one that is intended for you. Be thankful that she was a part of your life for a short time and realize that it is better to have happened now than further down the road. You have a long road ahead of you and tons of happiness that will come your way....I wish you the best

Ok Im going to sound very cynical here and i do apologize for that but--- basically you are saying that you were with a girl for 9 months and you were going to school and planning a wedding and you were sooooo in love!! you gave it your all- ummm so what was she doing during your giving it your all? you have never said.

You are 20 years old!!!! 20! why in the world would you want to get married at such a young age??? go explore!! get a great job!! date lots of girls- find what you want cuz baby right now you have no idea what it is that is going to make you happy.

ENJOY LIFE~!!!! stop listening to Metal all the time- it will depress you- go grab your friends and get out there. Whatever is supposed to happen- will- but in the meantime- aren't you glad you found out now instead of after you married her?

confucius say "when man is sad go to mcdonalds and buy yourself a HAPPY meal ..and when the HAPPY meal doesnt make you HAPPY sue mcdonalds for false advertising ..get millions of yen from the law suit buy yourself plenty o' HOS and have lots of SEX..this will make you HAPPY"....the end...

Intresting novel

sounds like the makings for a good country song

It's easy to say "you'll get over it" and you feel like you never will, but you will, MetalDude.

to the OP....your twenty,peoples hearts get broken...when you get older and married peoples sex lifes get broken.

Good morn! and sorry your hearts under construction? be well!Koolaid