I've been an emotional wreck... I've been pushing people away for no reason at all... I just want to stay locked inside the house all by myself with nobody or anything bothering me.. It seems to have gotten really bad since my Dad started trying to get back into my life again... I just can't figure out why I'm feeling like this.... I can't stop crying....

Do you want your father back into your life again??

Hey.......it's OK to cry to over something real like you've described.

I'm here if you want to talk....and if you posted this, you must want to talk at least a little......

I wish there was something I could do to make you feel a little better......

well, i hope that you find some solace in someone or something.....cheer up wonderful

there is always sunshine after a storm

I know how you feel sweetie, I know how you feel

That's the thing I have no clue... I'm torn because I hate him for the things he's done to me and want him to stay away but a part of me still wants him to be around because he is my dad and he's never been there....

Don't cry ,find a friend and talk talk talk

That's why I posted this I need someone to talk to...

on an emotional plateau such as this ....its hard not to second guess any decision that you might make......if your seriously considering it ,I would go for it.......either way its an opportunity for you to find closure and move forward!!!

We've done this several times threw out my life but it seems like every time I want to talk about our issues that's when he disappears again... A part of me thinks it's a waste of time....

You can only deal with your feelings....the best lesson I have learned in life is that you cannot change another person, only yourself, your reactions, and your feelings. If he is not ready to deal with his own issues, you can't do that for him. As hard as it is, because he is your dad, he is still just a person who has to grown at his own rate. If he doesn't feel he has done anything wrong, he won't see a need to change. If he is dealing with guilt because he KNOWs he has done wrong things, HE has to deal with that in order to move forward. I hope you can get past all the pain and have a good relationship at some point. "Mom"