As I sat here surrounded by these walls.
Listening to the phone while someone calls.
Knowing I should pick up the phone.
Instead I seem to be in another zone.

Just wanting to be left alone.
In my world of the unknown.
No one to bother me.
Just me and the TV.

As these walls seem to close in.
I know this is a place I have been.
In a world of my own.
One that I have known.

Not wanting to go outside.
At times just putting life aside.
As if I’m hiding.
Sitting here thinking and deciding.

Wondering how did I let it get this way?
I thought things were okay.
Things are not as they always seem.
And we end up with a low self esteem.

At times we sit and talk and never think.
That we are right on the brink.
Of wanting to crawl into a hole.
Depression before you know will grab your soul.

It will take you down.
Make you feel as if your fixing to drown.
You know you must crawl out and fight.
Even though I know I’ll be alright.

It makes me mad to even know.
I let it get to me and let it show.
Again it has made its mark.
Grabbed me and put me in the dark.

We find ourselves not wanting to discuss.
It is hard to even confess.
That again this thing has come our way.
Soon I will win it will not be here to stay.

This is how I have been this last few weeks. I know this feeling only
too well. It seems that Like you I am coming out of it, and finding my
inspirations again.




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Ms Txs,, A feeling I know so well, The walls
seem dark yet with friends and family to lift
us we come out and smile again,,,

So Beautifully written

Beautiful writing I agree. But I also Know your suffering from a mix of
Depression and agrophobia. A feeling of only feeling safe Indoors. babe
w all my heart I wish you would talk to a doctor. God
Bless

GOD TEXS,,,you have read ME here in and through your words and
im surrounded by family but still just want my space and freedom to
think,,but thinking also destroys ones perspective of ones self and
their future, as does depression of life, so we live in a constant
circle of emotions that will be ever lasting in there ups and downs
through what life throws at us ALL....Lov ya girl and your WORDS here
are trully FELT, by me.....
Life will HEAL yours and my,,,,,inner thoughts!!!
Keep on releasing for YOU and ME!!!!!

Thank you Gryphyn, yes we all do get this way once in a while and then
we remember the good things in life sometimes we just need that time to
remember and to think things out.

Denise your right our family and friends do help at those times but it
is within that we must really see the light and not let the dark get to
us.

Boom thank you for your concern, actually I'm not one that is afraid to
go outdoors for I do my best thinking while working in the yard. This is
one of those times I let something get too me that I should not have and
all is getting better.

Terry I do understand were your coming from and at those times we must
look deep within ourselves to see the real problem some times it is hard
to see were it truely lays at times. But we must face the truth and work
things out within first. Sometimes that is harder to do than said. But
it can be done we just have to have the will power to want to make
things better.

As for me things are getting better the problem has been dealt with. I
need the rain to leave and let me get out and work in my yard
shhhhhhhhhs

i'm speechless gal,seems to be a growing problem i'm having. but you can
do my yardwork............lolol

words so true as always.

(((((((((Txs.)))))))))))

when the darkness is allowed to seep in
all we can do is call on a true friend
to give us warmth and hug us tight
and forever be our guiding light
and let us know it will be alright.

TXS YOU KNOW YOU CAN COUNT ON ME TO CHEER YOU UP, IM ALWAYS HERE FOR
YOU.

WHATS UP "SLOWHANDS" ? LMAO