Today I find myself looking into my future, unsure of where I am going or when its going to end
I find myself wishing and waiting and realizing that I don’t know much of anything and the feeling of ignorance is almost overwhelming.
I am contemplating life and death. The never ending circle between two equally unfathomable realms.
Today I realized how young I really am, how old I am and the paradox of time being too short and much too long.
I realize how precious a new life can be and with what relief an old one can end.
I find myself coming to understand how everything in life needs balance and without it how chaotic the world can be.
With life comes death, with change comes constant.
I find myself still stinging from grief over the loss of a few dear friends, and fighting that lingering bitterness that comes with betrayal.
And finally accepting the sad reality that nothing is ever as simple as it should be.

Today I am celebrating the peace that has settled in my soul
And trying to calm the storm that has retreated for now.

Today I have been doing mindless chores and finding myself content, thanking whatever powers that be that I am alive to fold laundry and take out the trash
Today
I am happy
And sad
And relieved
And calm
And tired
Today I am myself, merely mortal
And I realize that is the shadow of death were to cross my face I wouldn’t be sad to see him come.

calming thoughts but i'm going kicking and screaming

Wonderful write and ty for sharing it

You are an "old Soul."

Forever listen to the gentle whisperings of your Soul, and it will never fail you or cease to guide you