Mom, you know that I love you very much. But sometimes it is hard to get close to you because you do push me away at times, defly when I seem to need you most. Sometimes I just wish we can sit alone without others around and really talk about what is on our mind. I want you to know that I hate you, but love you even more. I just want us to be close and be a real mother and daughter that we should have been. I can not blame all the fault on you what life had brought us, because our world had brought us so much pain and sorrow and no help to keep us a family. But there is no reason why we can't take a needle and thread right now and mend both our hearts and start over as a family. Please mom, can we start over and be a family?

Have you considered sending this to your mother? It's quite lovely.

Sad. Even sadder because it is sometimes true.

I posted this in my blog on myspace and this was her reply....

I love you Caroline I always have and I will always love you. Someday soon if you want too when it is warm outside we can go do something together without your sisters tagging along.I Love you Caroline. Love MOM....

Still haven't had that time alone cause our life gets busy. But someday soon it will happen.