So afraid of falling, I allowed it to hold me back
So afraid of breathing, I too allowed it to hold me back
In return I remained stunted and shattered
Crippled by my own emotions and demons
No matter how hard I fought, no matter how hard I tried to breathe
I just fell apart time after time, disappointing myself over and over again
Insecure, neurotic, teetering on the edge of insanity
Do I or don't I, live or die, breathe or hold my breath, fall or hold on
Beating my head against the wall, screaming until I was hoarse
One step forward twelve steps backwards
Same mistakes repeated time and time again
Lessons never fully learned
Stepping in the pile of dung over and over
Lying down with fleas itching and scratching all night long
Enough!! I screamed no longer able to function no longer able to think
Introspection, self examination, pick apart my own psyche
Repaired the damage done, no longer coming undone
So now I fall knowing I will be caught
So now I breathe knowing that my lungs will not collapse
Whole, human once again, life can begin again

nice

The sad thing is, that many people feel what you have expressed, but most don't know that it is not "normal", and they go their entire life without ever actually living life at all.
Outstanding work.

Peace.

Awesome we must all sooner or later face our demons and once again learn to trust with our whole heart and soul.

You my Rose are in full bloom. The sun is shinning the birds are singing as they watch you dance around singing and smiling knowing you have found a place you can call home.

These thoughts and feelings run almost as deep as life itself. When I read these words, it's like looking into a mirror of my former self. Excellent write.

Intense....great write.