No more fighting,no more battles,no more love,no more breathing,or seeing Mother nature in all her beauty and splendor,with precious butterflies fluttering about,and bees buzzing zipping and zapping in and out of flower stamins!

God,I am truly ready,I am ready for judgement,and I am truly ready for your swift hand of punishment,for I am not deserving of either lieninecy,nor Love.

I have little worthiness except for 3 kitties of whom I adore with all my heart,but as for a woman human being,this is no longer in your plans for me,I realize this and therefore I ask that you Take me to your judgement chambers,where I will recieve my penalty,willingly!

I know you will take care of my kitties,and even though I know they will miss me,and I them,I shouldnt of had them in the first place.

But my heart,being as soft and tender as it is,did appreciate that little taste of love,which I will remember for all eternity!

This is not a suicide note,but just a wish for all this to be over,as soon as humanly possible!




Thankyou for reading,



Rodster


PS.This is just being without a medication talking,and my mind at work,as I am searching for an answer,somewhere,somehow,and dont have one as of yet.

Dude, you have got to just hang in there.

most states have programs to help with medications..i would look into that.


best of luck

Thankyou for yor suggestion! Have been through the Oregon Prescription Assistance Program,but now I work and make to much money to qualify,but appreciate your moral support!

sorry to hear that...i got in the same boat a few years ago...but hang in there...it can and will get better.



if you ever want to you are more than welcome to email me

"for I am not deserving of either lieninecy,nor Love...."


If you're pouring your heart out to the Creator, than you are addressing LOVE Itself.....you ARE deserving of leniency and Love....when coming to God, it is impossible to receive anything other than what the Creator is, and that is pure and absolute LOVE.


"This is not a suicide note,but just a wish for all this to be over,as soon as humanly possible!"


The whole thing sounds like a prayer to me