This is a major vent and it is going to be long- really long... sorry.
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Last year in July of '07 I lost my income and the home I was
living in. I ended up regretfully having to sell some of my beloved peekapoo dogs.


One of those peekapoos was a black with white female named
Tinker (short for tinkerbell). I sold her to an older lady
in my town in July '07. I gave her the option of no matter
how long she had her- if she could'nt keep her or did'nt want her anymore- that I would gladly buy her back. I spoke to this
lady a few times between July'07 and September '07 on the phone to make sure everything was going good and that she was happy with Tinker. She told me she loved her and could never part with her.
I stopped calling her- as I did'nt want to become a pain in her
arse. I never heard from her at all. I then became busy trying to survive the streets for awhile myself over the next months.
There was a phone number to reach me at, for all the new owners
of my dogs.


Sadly in June of this year '08 I saw an obituarie in the paper
and I was wondering if it was the lady that I had sold Tinker to. The name was the same, but it was a younger pic so I was'nt sure if it was her or not. Alot of people share the same names
sometimes. Well I gave it some time- out of respect before I
did anything. I called the telephone number I had where Tinker
was suppose to be living and got transfered to an automative
answering service. I had placed two calls to that number a few
days apart. Once again- out of respect for the family.


I then stopped by the house where she had lived a couple of times a few days apart. It appeared that someone was still living or coming over there. There also was a very large DOG tied up in the back yard. No sign of Tinker or her barking when I knocked on the door. I never recieved a call back from the two messages I had left on the phone.


I was beginning to really worry about what had happened to Tinker. So once again I decided to stop by the house Yesterday
since I was out that way. This time there was a lady there.
So as politely as I could- I asked her "Are you ______ daughter?" She said yes I am. I then said "I am so sorry to bother you, but was that your Mom ______ that passed away in the paper?".She said yes it was. I then told her how sorry I was to hear about her Mother and told her she was a really nice lady. I explained who I was, and asked her what has happened to Tinker (whom her Mom had renamed Sissy by the way). I said I would be willing to buy her back from the family if they did not want to keep her.


This lady proceded to tell me she knew nothing about any dog.
That her Mother did'nt have a dog (even though there was a big one in the back yard). She stated her Mom was too sick to care for a dog, yet alone herself. (I was'nt sure what to think. I had a feeling she was not being honest with me for some reason.) I then asked if the daughter that was living with the lady at the time I sold the dog- would know anything about her. She said she had died too in August. I said "I am so sorry." I then said perhaps your brother knows what happened to the dog (because I remembered in my mind, the lady telling me what her son thought about Tinker on the phone during one of our conversations). She said her brother would'nt know anything about any dog. (She acted very agitated from the get go with me.)I relized I was'nt going to get anywhere with her- even though I told her that the dog still meant alot to me and that I would like to know what became of her. So I thanked her and left.


All I did was cry my eyes out when I got home. I felt this woman was not being up front with me at all and I wondered why.
So then I decided to look up the son of the lady I sold Tinker to. There was one name listed under his name in the city that was listed in the obituarie. (The sister I just talked to- also said he lived in a different city than what he really did).


I made the call. When the man answered I asked "Are you ______?"
He said yes. Then I said "I don't mean to bother you but are you _______ son?" He said yes. I then once again explained who I was. At first he really did'nt say anything and acted like he knew nothing. So I then pleaded with him. I told him I really loved Tinker/Sissy and I just want to know what happened to her.
He then said his sister (the one I just talked to- that said she knew nothing) had given the dog away shortly after their sister died (the one that lived with their Mom). This was supposed to be in August of '07. (I am thinking to myself by this time what the hell). I had spoke to the lady in September and she told me everything was allright. (WTF). I remained very calm and stayed compassionate about their situation (inside I was fuming mad). I can not understand why they never called me. If they lost my number- they could of placed an add out or something. She was supposed to be returned to me if she did'nt want her. I relize they were grieving about the sister at this time.


I than calmly asked as politely as I could while still remaining nice-
"Then why did the sister just lie to me about the dog?" He hesitated and was'nt sure what to say for a moment. Then he said to me- well it is'nt as if the dog is dead. Shes ok.
He than said- drop it. My family has been through enough.
I then say- "Yes I know you have been through alot and I am truely sorry for your losses. I just wanted to know what happened to my dog.". I then thanked him and We hung up.


I bawled my fool head off. Between these two people I got no where and did'nt get any answers. All I wanted to know is what happened to my dog. Now I know nothing. My last memories of Tinker are me kneeling on the ground saying goodbye to her.
Tinker crawled up on me and dug all four sets of her claws into me and hug on to me for dear life. She gave me that look like Mommy don't leave me here. I put her in that ladies lap and left. I have never felt good about it since- believe me.


She is the only one that acted that way- when I sold her.
The rest of them were happy and greeting their new owners.
For the life of me I will never forgive myself for leaving Tinker there. I hear from all the other people who have my other
dogs from time to time. I can go see them if I want- but I don't
because I don't wnat to make it any harder on the dogs or me.
I screened all these people well before placing my dogs with any of them.


I am so sick over this. I did'nt even sleep last night.
I just keep crying- when I start thinking of the situation.

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I have decided to place an add in the paper on Monday with her picture saying the following:
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(PHOTO of Tinker Here)

This is Tinker- she may be being called Sissy or some other name by now. She is a black with white female peekapoo. I am her original owner. I had to sell her in July of 2007. I sold her to a lady on_________ street in the city of _________. Sadly the lady I sold her to- has passed away during June of 2008. I spoke with two people about her. One knew nothing about a dog, the other said she may of been given away in August of 2007. I had given the lady I sold her to an option that I would buy her back if she ended up not wanting her or not being able to keep her. No matter how long she had her for, she could allways return her.
I do not know what happened to her or where she is.
If anyone has any information or knows of the whereabouts of this dog. Please contact me. Or if you are her new owner please contact me. I am heart broken and need to know what happened to her. I can be reached at ###-###-####. Thankyou.
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Please keep good thought and prayers out for Tinker and me.
So I may know where and what has happened to her. So my heart
can quit being broke and I can stop crying...

Thankyou, Teddy
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sorry hope you find her

im sorry to hear that. good luck to you in finding her.

Teddy -- Sorry to hear this....I can't understand why those people felt the need to cover things up, to be dishonest and misleading. And all you tried to do was get some information!

I sincerely hope the ad does some good and you can find Tinker. You did what you had to do, at a rough time in your life, and no one can fault you for that. And I'm sure that Tinker misses you as much as you miss her.

Here's hoping for a speedy reunion!

Awww ((((Teddy)))), my heart breaks for you too my friend. Prayers are also going out for you and that you can soon find out what happened to your beloved Tinker. Been in that situation myself and when you have to give away one of your pets it's like a piece of your heart gets ripped away with them.

Oh Teddy I am so sorry. If you need to talk mail me All my prayers to you and Tinker

I hope and pray that you will find your dog, I know how much my animals mean to me. I just dont understand why they had to be dishonest with you about the dog. I just dont understand people anymore, what happened to being honest?

Awwwww Ms. Teddy, I'm so sorry to read this. It just breaks my heart! I pray that you can find out something about Tinker.

awe! *bear hugs for granny bear* =D

The new families of Tinker may love her very much, and may be afraid to contact you even if they see the clip, because they may be worried you want her back and may not respond. Maybe if you let them know all you need is to know she is loved and cared for?

I am very concerned as well. I know that love for a pet friend. I hope you find out something that helps you find peace in your decision.


Kat

(((Kat))) Your right. Perhaps I should reword my add telling them I just want to know if she is ok, and would just like to see her one last time if I can. If she has a good home- I will be ok with that. It is just the out right NOT knowing that is killing me. I will make sure to word the ad better when I put it in.

Thanks everyone! I just don't know about some people some times.
At times they seem so uncaring in this big ole' world. Yet there
is so much love for each other in here- it keeps my faith in Humane kind going. Goodness knows I need the kindness right now.
I am trying not to be sad, it so hard...

KICK IT IN THE FACE! You'll feel better! Not sure who's face you will be kicking, but kicking faces is a good stress relief

Still don't know anything yet...
Please keep the prayers going.
I really need to know what happened to her.

your on my church prayer list sweetie

awwwwwwwwwwww((((((((teddy))))))))))

UPDATE ON TINKER !!!
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I placed an ad in shopper guide with Tinkers picture. The paper came out this Thursday. I received a phone call today from a person who knows the elderly woman who may have Tinker. She was taken to the animal shelter in August of 2007.
She was is the shelter for three months.
She was adopted out in November of 2007.

The lady that has her- was called by several people that saw the add. She said if it was my dog- I deserved to know what happened. However she did not want to call, or see me. She wanted her privacey. So this friend called instead. I am sending pictures to the friend to identify Tinker.
She was being called Sissy in the shelter.

They discribed her, and I believe it is her. I just wish I could see her in person- to really be sure. Well I am sending the pics out today and they will call me when they get them. If it is her
she has a good home- as far as I can tell.

Keepimg my fingers crossed it is her, so this nightmare for me will some what end. I wish they could send me pics so I could see her too. I still can't understand all the secracsy when it comes to this dog???

Thankyou everyone for the prayers and good wishes.
Please Pray that they will have a "change of mind" and let me see her. I feel uncomfortable about not being able to see her. Yet I have to respect the persons wishes who may have Tinker. I assured the friend I did not want to take her from the lady, I just wanted to know she was loved and allright. I still don't know weather to smile or cry.