I started writing this post in my mind a couple of days ago, but wasn't sure about posting it. Now I don't think there will ever be a good time to post it, so now's as good a time as any...


Have you ever done something on the sly with the explicit intention of not hurting or upsetting someone, yet eventually you realize it may have happened anyway. How do you apologize for that? Can you ever regain the trust that was lost? How do you live with yourself if they can’t forgive you? Let’s find out, shall we? (You already know who you are if I’m right…)

In sight of this forum, my newfound family, I most humbly apologize if I have upset you in any way. I never intended to deceive you. I knew eventually you would figure it out, so I purposely left a few clues behind for you so you wouldn't wonder. I knew we would probably cross paths here on the forums occasionally as well, but I tried to treat your posts as if they were by any of the great people on here. Since I think you know by now my personality is pretty atypical of most men, and you know a large portion of my past as well, I shouldn't have been that hard for you to spot anyway... I was trying to give you all the time and space you asked for, even if I stood little chance of winning your heart, but I wanted to play here and make some new friends too. This place is truly awesome with some of the most amazing people to be found anywhere. Since I have been forced to distance myself from my entire family, and have lost my wife and stepdaughters partly because of them and her family, I find I have a huge empty spot in my heart they once occupied. I’m just hoping to have some fun here and maybe fill in a little bit of that empty spot for now. I hope you can understand, and eventually forgive....

I hope she can forgive you. I would find it hard to be friends with him, considering he is going back to HER. I know deep down in my heart that he never intended on leaving her.....