Thanks...it was the day before my birthday too...so I was feeling very sentimental.

this morning thinking about Simba Im so sorry for your loss Cutie!!!!

Right this second...I have to share this ...I just recieved this in my mail and it just melted my heart and made me boo hoo~

all i ever do
is stay up
all i ever do
is sleep
but never like the rest of the world
still in bed at the crack of noon
even though you make me swoon
and i know come 5:30 you're up
and standing by the coffeee machine
old habits die hard
writing before i sleep
when the world is less busy
and my thoughts are more deep
a smile comes a creeping
across my face
when thoughts of spending time with you
standing at a place
beside you or under the tree
your hand in mine
could that ever be
how do you tell someone
they are in your thoughts
when you haven't laughed out loud together
like you know you ought
ought to be asking
about her day
about her spirit
did she get to play
ask her about
her forever eyes
think back to when you wrote
the first time
how just the littlest thing
reminds you of her
and the smiles you get
run together in a blur
how you hope she can see
the soul within
hope she sees
how she makes you grin
how you spend time writing
straight from the heart
what a woman she is
what a wonderful start

in my life
i've held out hope
for friendship and attraction
i know i'm no dope
maybe my standards
aren't like all the rest
the standard of heart
is the one i like best
am i a fool
to see the soul of her eyes
why am i rambling
to see her neath blue skies
sometimes you have to
find out if it works
her hand in mine
or would she think me a jerk
it's not the distance
might be the money
would a warrior like that
call a broke man honey
we all have fears
we all have hopes
stand before the mirror
wonder if i'm a dope
but then she writes
and then she calls
and i no longer doubt
or feel dopey at all
a wee bit insecure
like humans can be
it can be hard to accept
that she accepts me

so at the end of the day
when everything is quiet
and the birds start to sing
as the sun starts to rise
and i lay my head
down and get neath the covers
i smile and give thanks
she is not like the others
give thanks for the gift
of getting to know
a woman like that
a woman who shows
the indefinable aspect
quality so strong
i long to sit over coffee
the whole day long
open my life
to her be a book
and hope that she finds
she likes the way that i look.
so a little bit nervous
but a whole lot secure
still it can be scary
but i won't be demure
all these words never ending
just to say
i wish i was with you
in all kinds of ways.

thanks sweetie

(((((((((((everyone in tears)))))))))))))

i will be soon, just angry for now

Father's Day...when I had to take flower's to the cemetary alone again because my daughter still cannot come to grips with losing her dad and refuses to go.

awwwww. thats sad

That is so sad,it is good that yiu are there to support her.Blessings to you

five seconds ago.

This morning as I kissed my sister as she was going into surgery.

2 days ago

7 days ago

Ah, I've been in "Relationships" tons since joining. You've gotta look closer. Heh

I'm usually in the other forums because I can be more genuine there.

Lookin I hope everything is ok!

((((Topsy))) It's ok. You are a strong woman. You know you have friends too who will help you anyway they can.


I cried last night. My friend had her testominal removed somehow from my profile. I've never removed any testmonials. She thought I did it and was hurt by actions I didn't do.

It's the story of my life. I get blamed for things or have misunderstandings. My friendship with her is solid as she knows me and for that I am so, so greatful. It still hurt me greatly during the incident.

I lost a friend earlier in the week because of a misunderstanding and I can't say I blame her. It still hurts.

Today....stressing about the abuses going on at work.

father's day, when i was told that (despite what i've been told by others) my daughter DOESN'T know i'm her mom.....she just knows that i've helped take care of her.

just to clarify that, my daughter has lived with my brother and his fiancee since 2004, when she was only 19 months old.