I sit frail feeling naked in a crowd
Everyone's face is shining for me it seems not allowed
The collar of my shirt gets tighter like a noose
shooting pain from my stomach to my heart I want to let loose
What would happen if I would say what I wanna say
Would people look at me with disdain and just walk away
Shaking scared, can't just walk up to a woman to say she's pretty
Whats the point even if she'd like me, she'd find someone better and leave me

Fire in my soul can't quite get the right words out
I question every act I make my whole brain is in doubt
Left feeling like a boy unable to please well enough
She's off being happy, I just sit here and write this stupid stuff

They say Hang on but hang on to what?
I can't hang on to what i haven't got
Lonley crying like a child even I'm tired of it
But I can't shake this feeling of being a piece of s.h.i.t


I stand hunched staring at the ground I'll become a part of
when they speak to a happy ex wife I won't be dearly departed
anger gets easier with time as does evil and depression
Why would I want to try fall again, haven't I learned my lesson.
She will wear white again and lie to another man and her family
It doesn't matter what she says yesterday today she could be leaving
On to the next man another heart to conquer. when it happens to him I'll be laughin

you're beautiful baby

Your poems are raw man. Very heartfelt. I was there where you are now. And when everyone told me I would get over that hump in my life I didn't believe them. Nor want to believe them.


As of now, I'm over her. She's moved on. Another man is living in my house right now. LMFAO!

What I can tell you is this. It takes time and a change of heart. But the change of heart only comes with time.

I'm not hitting on you. I don't swing that way but let me tell you this.... You are a good lookin cat. You also got a talent to write and I see your heart is not only on the inside but the the outside of your sleeve.

If you ever want to talk about it this hit me up. It always feels good to get the pain off the chest and just vent. Sometimes it's good to have another mans opinion who has been through this. I had a friend of mine tell me word for word what was going to happen in my relationship when it started going south and dam was he right on! It's good to have a support group. Not that you have to go to counseling. Just to have someone to talk with will keep your sanity. Atleast it did mine.

As for now... This site provides a great sense of sanity for me. I'm not sure where I would be right now if I was not here....

Thanks for the understanding. This is all the therapy I can afford. I just write to get it out and make it up as i go. I know others before me had gone through this. I may not be as strong as them. but none the less thank you.