I should have listened to my mother that day
When we met for lunch somewhere in new york
I told her some things in my life were gonna change
and that I wasn't gonna be alone anymore
She took one good look at my bride to be,and saw nothing
'but green in her eyes
She said son I know you refuse to take my advice,but this
girl is gonna leave you high and dry


You're some kind of fool,I wouldn't dare take your word.
For I swear she's not like the rest.
She makes me feel more alive than other girls,in fact above
all else shes the best.
You would think the slap across my face would make me think twice
but its just like a son to rebel just to prove,that no one controls his life



It doesn't matter what they say,for they never knew about us
they never did understand,just how far and hard I was in love
I was blinded to their faces,all the looks of "I disapprove"
and the words would slowly fade away.before ever coming through




Our life was kind of like a storybook.I was in this fantasy.
All had disappeared around us,and there was nothing but her love
and me.
She made me feel like I was her number one,and for time this feeling did last.
Until the day I found that I knocked her up,and the changes came storming fast.


We used to run the streets at night,and hardly break a sweat,but now she laid like a vegetable inside,always moody and constantly upset.
Saying things like I think this love is cursed,and maybe I chose the wrong man.
Now that we have a baby on the way,I hope he one day understands.



So far downhill our chemistry had fallen,things were no longer the same.
We were married in may,we thought destiny was calling..and that we could handle the change.
In august our first child had arrived,and I cant describe how she hated me
A little over one year later our daughter was born,to everyones disbelief.



We faked it well and played family,but no love crossed between mom and dad.
Everytime she said I love you,it was one more lie that had passed.
This went on for years until the day,another man had come along.All the time I worked like a dog of a slave,lead to the day my wife was gone.



And so I was there all alone,wondering what on earth had gone wrong.
My kids were living somewhere across town,and they were aware what was going on.
I can imagine the looks upon their face,when mommy looked at them and said,"Daddy wont be here to tuck you in tonight,Mommies new friend Dave will read the story books instead.




Superhero Dave did impress my wife by the things that he would buy.He almost got away with robbing my house,until I put the fear of god in his life.
I thought to myself how low can one become..to take things that belong to me
It was bad enough he was banging my wife,but to think the materials came free.




Kind of glad to see the ***** was gone,but I miss my kids to this day.She works a job that pays her well..too bad its me not her that is drained.
Its nice to know my child support buys her boyfriend his week of beer
While my son goes without his lunch at school,thinking dad I wish you were here.




Mothers somewhere down south these days,I've told her time and again she was right.
I guess I should have listened to you,cause I'm missing my babies tonight.
I'm here stone cold broke and alone,I can't afford a place for my court ordered visitations.
I work my 40 hours a week for my empty pockets,only to find myself in devastation.
And I think of how lucky my ex has got it,and I think to myself Oh damn.
I never thought a break up would leave me rotting,and a divorce was a rewards program.
While I make my seven and a half an hour and she gets paid eleven fourteen..plus my seventy a week,my sons a.d.d and my daughters disability.
I walk to work in the pissing rain and snow,cause she got the pontiac grand am.
Never knowing in which direction I will go,with hardly a leg to stand.

Great write here JT..and Life will be great.
Just keep on keepin on man.

Thank you

For you ~

very good write