...my oldest is in Prison for the 3rd time...someone very special to me sent me this....my son is not/here in his head yet if he ever will be there...he's to selfish to be that self sacrificing.....

YOU'VE ALL HEARD IT NO DOUBT......




Tile :Blue October - Hate Me

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don't loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so ****ing far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you


(Verse 3)
And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I found out I can't make it go away, just make it stop
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you did this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you, for you, for you, for you...

~TY~babe....

I'm sorry

my mama had me in prison

We can only do so much for our children,,,, If they chose not to listen that is not our fault,,,, My son did something stupid and now I am haveing to pay for it and he is as well,,, Not in prison but one foot in the door,,,, We can only try to help them understand,,,,,

Hang in there!!!! He will wake up one of these days and think shy the hell did I do all this Sh**....they have to have the want to and will power to get help or to decide they want to change...just pray and don't walk away from him....

I Thank God she had you....

....don't get me wrong folks...I know exactly why and how he got there.....my friend who sent me the song takes credit for putting his mom threw the sh*t....my son does not.....this last time he almost killed me with the stress...yet he acts like being a mom means you have a bottomless amount of resources to keep dealin w/their all encompassing path of destruction..."NOT"



~w~