want her back i don't know yet , i actually want to see her or call her atleast and talk this out so we can maybe just be friends or end this in a more respectful way in a more mature way yes i still have many questions i want to ask her that i will probably never now , im just not contacting her until she does

she doesnt have big boobs im more of an assman but i wasnt just looking for someone to mess around with not worth th e100km and the same goes for her , if she wanted a sexbuddy there where plenty of boys in her neighbourhood why even bother with me

yess of course but she lives 100km from where i live whe live in belgium me in brussels the center and she at the coast ostend , she would come over to my place and sleep , we would usually see each other 2-3 times a week

first i want to thank yall for your replies and maybe i should add this , i think she has a mental problem but honestly it didnt really bother me instead of only the negatives let me bring up th egood stuff , example when i'm at wordk or school we constantly text each other just talking to each other we can talk on , and on , and on , and on.... she adores kids like children are precious for her , a few months ago she told me she wanted my babies lol , her mum was happy to see her happy all the because of me and invited me to go on vacation with them but i couldnt because school and work many times she texted me i wish you were here...

ok this is complicated first off let's start with the type of girl that she is , I can't even figure it out myself.
She is 18 her father is iranian and her mother is ukranian.Still a teen but pretty mature and smart , has PMS , is kind of narcissistic she admits it.She also adores beards like really a huge turn on for her physically.And also likes extremely dominant men.She had a passage in her life where she took alot of drugs to the point where she would wake up in the hospital and at that time she was also a slut but me I don't judge the past is the past...

OK so when we decided to start a relationship we had some terms such as : no talking to other girls when she wasnt around in real life or social media and the same for her with boys.

so me im actually not her type , I do not have a beard i'm dominant but not to the extreme I believe the man should be in charge but when i trust someone i give them freedom.But she fell in love with me and I also fell in love with her it wasn't love on the first sight but as we started to know more and more about each other that's where the spark started.

Now at first she was really the one running after me always afraid that I would dump her or leave her , as long as she didn't cheat i wasn't planning to leave her anytime soon.

the relationship builds up we have our fights ect.. ups and down no brake ups tho , something that i noticed that i usually did wrong was when we argued and she really got on my nerves i would insult her without meaning it but it just comes out she also kind of asked for it but it's still no excuse for the way i would insult her , many times.i will explain further why.

She would tell me that from the outside i look like a man and dominant but when we argued sometimes i would act like a ***** she said i was too submissive sometimes and if i didnt act like a ***** i would act like an ******* according to her so i wasw orking on that to be more dominant , the thing is i really never knew what type of dominance she wanted , she was never clear about it what i realised now is that she wanted me to forbid her doing things that where not good for her , but the problem was i was thinking to myself she is 18 im not raising a child right??what eveer let's just say i was working on my dominant side.

A few months later she goes on a vaction trip with her mother in spain , i could not be there with her due to work and school parttime.We would text each other thru facebook while she was on vacation , in the beginning everything was still fine but a few days later into the trip we started to argue alot about stupid things , many times I lost my temper and insulted her again and again but apologising everytime.The fights where like this usually example ; iback home sh ewould never party and rarely drink on her way to spain she text me and says oo i feel so horny right know i'm gonna go out tonight and have some good drinks.I would say why are you saying thi swhat is wrong with you bla bla bla she would end the fight with what you don't trust me ? i'm not going to have sex what do you think i'm a slut?And I know she was loyal but the way she spoke about going out and stuff concerned me , many times she said stuf like that to make me jealous? I don't know..

So this last fight is where it all went wrong she asked me if it was ok if she went out a night with some girls and guys that she met at the hotel and i said no because of the guys if it was just girls i would say ok but no guys that was the decision we made no guys where im not around because if i ever wanted to go to a party or whatever i could not go without her , i told here when i go somewhere i just go out with my bro's you know no ladies , then she said oo but i trust you you know.the reason why i said no that she could not go out with that group of people is beccause i wanted to show her my dominance right , so she says ok but im going anyways i just wanted to hear you say yes ,so at that moment i was like ok so it doesnt matter what i say you will do it anyway ok have fun then i do not want ruin your vacation , then she says you see your are not a man you dont stand by your principles.i was getting really pist and said ok you know what now you have a choice either you choose me or that group that you barely know , if you choose them you don't have to talk to me anymore , she replied ok then we are done talking , i said are you serious you choose them??over me??She said look that's how you need to be in the future more dominant i like that , but i was so aggrovated i said yes but i wont be dominant with you because your choice is clear , and again.. i insulted her....

The last fight we had she said if i would insult her one more time she would leave so she blocked my fb my number everything.

thru an other account i apologised again that i didn't expect that choice from her ect... i was asking her if i could call her to talk this out because i hate arguing thru chat exspecially a brake up.
She would lie to me an dsay look i cheated on you twice bla bla bla so that i would leave her i would say it's my fault that you cheated on me i should have been more of a man ect... her final meesage to me before she blocked that account too was : Listen i din not cheat in you i just wanted you to leave me i realised that we don't match , i love you but not enough i guess i just want the best for you take care.

So the only way i could respond was to ask a friend to send her a msg thru whatsapp and i asked ; look i asked you a 1000 times before if you where sure that you wanted me , i asked her several times just out of nowhere , after fights , many times and she always said yes i'm sure i love you that was my confirmation that she really loved me so i opened up for her completely , her response was i was mistaken that's human no? humans make mistakes and that we just don't fit together it's not only the insults but that we dont fit that i'm just not her type.

Okk I might understand but she could be just a little more respectful than breaking up thru chat the last thing was i said to my friend to tell her to thank her for all the good moments we had and she replied thank him too and taht's the last i heard from her it's been 2 days now she will comeback from vacation in 2 weeks and i'm wondering will she maybe comeback , does have here PMS? I just don't know it just all unexpected because now i opened up for her fallen completely in love and she just left me on vacation thru text....


(sorry for my english im just tired and it's not my native language)

am sure am not 100% correct but i am bringing up good points.The funny thing is almost evrybody has something to say about spercellmentality but ignoring the rest of the post.you can't disagree when you help somebody you do it because it makes YOU feel good , it gives YOU a warm feeling in YOUR hart , it makes YOU happy seeing them happy so it kind of makes you selfish by nature.what i mean by don't judge me , we all come from different places , you may come or live in some peaceful tribe but in the "civilized" world it's far from peaceful it's all about ME's , since the beginning of civilization it's all about ME's.Wars to claim territories nothing has really changed.So you might have a different perspective in life but pls don't say he won't have any friends like this or you will die a lonely man.I didn't ask you to write what you think about me as a person , if you have an arguement post it , pick things that you don't agree with and write your arguements , im all about that.

So i've been reading through the comments on my post


people pls


It's just one perspective,if it's interesting and resourceful use it , but pls don't judge me , if you're real like me and you talk to me for 2 minutes i put money on it you will feel like you have known me for 20 years...i put everyone in the same category..from a ceo to a f**king burger flipper at mcdonalds..were all going to the same place when we die.

It really pisses me off to hear people talk about IQ and who's the smartest etc... I only got two words for this. UTTER *******T.
It is physically impossible to measure knowledge or IQ... You can't put a score on thoughts. Different people have different minds and strong points. Let me give you an example, If you were to compare the knowledge of a lawyer and a fitness expert (me) you would come to the conclusion that I don't know a single **** about his job and would look like a retard if put in his shoes in a courtroom. Just like he doesn't know **** about fitness and probably thinks protein supplementation is dangerous like most non lifters that haven't ever lifted anything in their life.
The point is that everyone educates theirselves in things they are interested in. An old man somewhere in a village in Africa that can't write or read can have an immense larger amount of life knowledge then a western "genius" that graduated 20 universities.
School doesn't make you "smarter", using your brain makes you "smarter". The thing is that most things in life just require logical thinking and you don't have to be a genius to see certain truths hidden in plain sight. Think outside of the box and you might just learn something in life. **** following the herd... one thousand idiots can't convince the one thinker.

Read this eye opening advice...
Never think about others. You are for yourself the only important thing in this world. As a matter of fact if you didn't exist, nothing else around you would exist either (for you). That's why you should never sacrifice yourself for others not in the smallest way, you need to put yourself first in every single thing in life. (srs)
Living organisms are selfish by nature, the word selfish shouldn't even exist it should be called "normal" Because every single thing you do in this life is selfish. Even if you were to help out others you are still doing it for yourself, because it gives YOU a good feeling to help them. If you naturally felt bad for helping others you wouldn't do it right? You only love your mother because she's YOUR mother, you don't love other people's mom right?
The point im trying to prove is that noone on this planet gives half a **** about your life or your dreams and this is normal that's why you need to care about yourself because you're the only one that cares.
Take every opportunity for succes that comes along and screw everyone else, even if it means you are seriously ******* over others. If they had the same chance they'd be screwing you over with a big smile guaranteed. In the end what are other people to you but a talking pile of bones and flesh? Their desteny has nothing to do with yours even if every single person on the planet would drop dead that wouldn't make your heart stop pounding becuase it doesn't give half a **** about other people it only pounds for you.
At the first stage of life as a spermcell you already have been ******* over millions of other spermcells and caused their death as you were the one that occupied the egg. That same spermcell mentallity should be held during your entire life to get that succes even if it means you are ******* over millions of other people.
We're all trying to have it OUR way in life and we are ALL trying to win.

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To whoever stole my Microsoft Office copy.I will find you. You have my Word.

I understand now but it's because english is not my native language so I did not understand painting the town red , I thought murdering maybe lol

Thank , what do you mean paint the town red ?

I like pancakes

jon pls

i'm currently cutting so no butter lol but thanks for the tips

To anyone who has tried the IIFYM diet ( If It Fits Your Macros ) did you have good results does it really work ?
cuz im tired of chicken breast and brown rice :(

Why do I have to copywrite my stuff , my pictures?

Thanks for the responses every one!!!

Cheers!!

lol what do you mean?