Heart


Beautifully slow
like still waters
relaxing
to the river's shimmering flow

It's something about summer
warm with the
intentionally hot
moments of being with her

Wine
music
and a slight breeze
makes life the epitome of fine

Sipping
the day's elixir
as we melt into
shooting star wishing

Growing closer
and closer
until she invites me
into her . . . heart
get your mind out of the gutter

An Imperfect Cold


It feels
like an imperfect cold
falling from heaven
with the grace of a lover's pain
burdened by the emotions
of I'm so sorry
and can't we just try to be . . .
please, baby

It feels
like an imperfect cold
falling from a brooding sky of dark clouds
with each drop proposing
a compromise
to let time
figure out where we are
as we try to figure out where we're going

I'm guessing
I could play the blues
and let our story play out
while the rain runs its course
I guess
I could let go
and not worry
while hoping the sun
will one day be
bright enough to wipe her tears away
but it's just so cold
without her next to me

You and I


Night's expression
a little laughter
wine
finger food
friends
you
and I

Music
fills the background
as the sun sets
to the rhythm
of the first moment
of many more to come tonight
as we feel our way
through the maze of life
love
and happiness

Night's expression
stars
rise one after another
conversation
dancing
more wine
fewer friends
until it's just
you
and I

The Endless Love

Once
in a long-ago moment
I could feel
the sun's warmth every time I heard her voice
it was as if her whispers
carried the day upon her words
taking me to a time where I could dream
the dream anyone in love
wants to dream

I could feel the sun setting
as the stars
eagerly waiting to shine their light upon our entwined souls
rose
one by one until heaven illuminated the dark
you see
with her there was always light

We celebrated
our first anniversary
and then
many more while watching our children grow
then our grandchildren
and through it all
I always felt the sun's warmth

And then suddenly
there was winter's cold
and I was alone, missing her
grieving
asking why
while holding tightly
every memory she gave me
and yet
in my hands was the emptiness of being alone
though every now and then
I can remember
conversations about nothing
that meant everything
and I still wait for each star to rise
hoping that I wish upon the one in which she resides
and wonder
if she can hear me when I say "I love you"

Effortlessly

Her touch
as gentle
and easy
as the autumn leaves falling effortlessly
one moment
after another
slowly and carefree
without knowing when and where they will land
begs me to ask
what,
if there is anything,
that I can do to have this time
for forever
because it's not enough
to have just until now

And as
the elegant warmth of her kiss
flows through my soul
as if time's meaning is the here and now
I close my eyes
and hope
wish
and pray
to remember tomorrow
because it is the lifetime of her love
that I live for

Monday

9:25 am
staring out the window
rain
a down pour of doom and gloom
and the clock refuses to move
it must be Monday

A deep breath
work
continues to pile up
while I'm dreaming
of Friday
but today
is still Monday

I need an escape
a distraction
coffee
conversation by the water cooler
even a smoke break
though I'll never touch a cigarette
but a break is a break
then lunch
a long one
more coffee
more conversation
no more cigarettes though
and it's still Monday

Come on clock
move
show me some mercy
tick tock
FIVE!! Yes!
wait
the commute . . . well might as work late to avoid the traffic
(long sigh and deep breath)
it's still Monday

Death

As the wind
subsides
and the sun begins
its sojourn into the dark sky's abyss
I can feel you leaving me
as the hands of time
slowly pulls you
closer
and closer to heaven

The wait hurts
watching
is as painful
but the hardest part of it all
is the change
the change
from us
to only
memories
tears at my empty soul

Love this one . . . seriously, you're definitely gifted

kind of complicated

Beautiful!!!!!

Closed

I knew
when it became so easy
to close the door
without watching you leave

No heartache.
Or memories.
It is only your absence
that even reminds me
that we shared another empty moment

Such a stark difference between
now
and when your love
would hurt me so much
I love this new-found freedom from us.
As there never really was an us, was it?
Just words. I smile not feeling a need to wonder
why
or what if. There are no more possibilities.
Yes, this time
it was easy
for the curtains to remain closed

Yeah, loved this one

Night to Day

The room was the kind of cool
that when you turn over in bed
you reach for the lover
your soul waited a lifetime for

It was the kind of cool
that once you find their body
you inch closer
and pull them even closer
until your bodies are fused together by an enchanting heat

Now
there's a divine warmth
that seems to erase midnight's air
and replace it with summer's morning kiss

Thank you all for the kind words

People Watching


I tend
to spend
my time
dreaming

Watching
closely
at others
but mostly
wondering

How
strange
different
and or odd
we all are
yet we're
virtually the same
which
is why I
dream
that it gets better

Different . . . thought provoking

Everlasting Season


It's winter
outside
but inside
with you
it's as hot as the sun's warmth
stretching across the summer's night
until sweat flows
our entwined souls

It's winter
yet
touching you
scorches my very being
as I lose myself
in everything your touch does to me

It's takes imagination
to feel the cold
the world offers
because
inside
with you
summer is the everlasting season

The Autumn Wind's Rain


The mist fell
from the clouded fog darkened sky
like sorrow upon my soul
achingly cold
such is the reminder
that time has its own course to follow
nothing changes as the world continues its onward journey
and yet
nothing remains the same

The sigh of autumn's wind
was as quiet
as the leaves
rhythmically floating
from the reaches of outstretched limbs
a cascading rainbow
of colors
searching for warmth
in the midst of the changing seasons

The rain's solemn despair
seems to define
the world's mood
as its weight grows heavier
and heavier
with each passing hour
my hope is that it is simply passing through
and that the sun
will once again
rise

Stage Four's Hurt

I scream
there's nothing like this pain
it feels as if I'm enduring
life
over and over
and
over again
only to know that life
isn't this one moment in time
but this one moment
is all that I have

I love you
more than there are reasons for the sun to rise
more than
who I am
because without you
I am no one
so
I scream
knowing that I am alone now
that I am fighting
this moment
this day
this seemingly eternity
because you have left me

It wasn't your choice
it wasn't something that was decided by
your smile
your laughter
your kindness
for now
reasons don't matter
why doesn't matter
only this pain
this torment
this loneliness
and how cancer took you from me

And it hurts so much