When I was 17 my dad made me go see a counseler and a phyciatrist because of all the s**t my mother put me threw before he took me away.

All they did was dope me up on medication so bad I felt like a Zombie. Then all the talk therapy did was open my eyes to the extent of abuse I suffered at not only her hands but at her boyfriends too. (they said I had suppressed the memories)

Well now I'm living with all these thoughts, having flashbacks and nightmares, and all they do is keep doping me more and more. I can't escape it, if I don't take the medication the nightmares get worse and the fashbacks fade, I do take the medication and the flashbacks get worse the nightmares become real and I'm a mess.



the only thing that helps me is writing

It all boiled over one night when I was with my boyfriend we were getting friendly and all of a sudden *BAM* nasty *ss memory comes outa left field. Ruines everything I can't live like it anymore they keep teing me it'll get better the more I talk about it....

All boiles down to I tried to end it.

My reguar doctor is now teing me that I probby could have been fine and been none the wiser if I hadn't have gone to therapy at that point in my life. He says it triggered a lot of memories that I repressed for a reason. So now I'm beary medicated and just fine never delving into my mind again.

I am all for healthy, helpful, empowering, motivating, professional psychotherapy. However, I'd like to look at it from another angle for a change:

We always hear the success stories of how therapy helped someone or another... but it doesn't always help.

Sometimes it does more damage than good. For those that feel or believe they were somehow negatively affected by it, how did it specifically hinder you, or hurt you?

What kind of damage did traditional therapy cause you and why do you feel its not beneficial to you. If you are seeking other methods today, why?

Fo shizzle

If you feel it is a duty then you definitely should not be in a relationship.

Do the duty? What's that all about?

You know, as long as you keep carrying this, whatever it is, in your heart you are allowing the one who hurt you to win. Think about this person. Are they worth it? It's your turn to win. Show them they are not worth it. Not every one out there is a pig..






thanks but it is not about winning it is about sacrifice and letting go

Don't Panic!

Nope. You can throw me on that bandwagon also. I am just looking to meet people and have fun. I have zero in the manner of expectations or preconceived notions. I am also perfectly fine with something casual or just mutual interests.

valentines day makes me vommit. i just puked now.