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Sat 11/15/08 03:47 PM
I know how many days there are in a year.
I've counted then all,
twice.
I counted and counted, waiting for you,
I counted on you but you never came.
Why?
My roses aren't glasses.
my roses are dead and sit on a shelf,
holding up memories.
covered with dust.
They have forgotten what roses are.
Cutting up magazines,
searching for eyes,
noses, mouths,chins,
sorting and re-sorting.
The duplication of you is
vague at best.
The days of the week are easier to count.
They are cyclical and
never unrhyming.
day, day, day, days
I count them instead
for years are too lond.

enderra's photo
Sat 11/15/08 02:20 PM
There was something strange about our relationship. he always seemed to be in a trance, I on the other hand was shockingly aware of everything.

I would talk to him and the words just bounced back with deafening sound. At those moments I would look him straight int he eyes in disbelief but he had these invisible shutters that fell down. There was no getting in.

Finally, I would give up and this was about the time he would reach for me, drawing me close. Echoed moans circled around my head then. It was impossible to tell where my space ended and his begun.

A second later we were separate entities again. he shutters up, fear flashed across his face, quickly changed to indifference. clenching his fist, while lifting me by my abdomen, at the same time the other slamming down over my head.

I would bounce back instantly. One breast removed, the other exposed to the world, gritting my teeth, I would my arrow fly. it would pass right through him. he would fall, then lurk forward lips puckered to kiss me. I would allow my eyes to close at this point and suddenly my arms were completely useless.

When I opened my eyes he would be gone. This scenario was repeated each this we met. There was no understanding of it for us.No explanation on this earth. Our relationship was of hate, love, balanced, too balanced. They were exhausting reunions but we did it as often as possible




enderra's photo
Thu 11/13/08 10:16 AM
he has my panty- less crotch
on fire
nightly
watching
in space
my desires
implode
he talks me through
a senario
naughty naughty
i play along
in subway cars
i cause cocks
to rise
for he
likes to share
watching
on dance floor
clubs
i bend over eagerly
he gives me
permission
though
he owns me
SLUT
WHORE
that i am
why should
i
shouldn't i
listen
he is a
deadly combination
of
young
beautiful
ar.tic/u-late
my caramel colored
lover
fantasy
realized
the reflection of
me male
longed for
by the less
lovely
but never to
possess
he plays with others
too
Angels in the
Light
i watch them
in that dark
nasty place
in my soul
of sighs and moans
my endless
dripping snatch
does she know
he is insatiable
with wandering eyes
he will
move on
to another
cerebral
vixen
that he
can possess
with words
as he
watches

enderra's photo
Thu 11/13/08 05:43 AM

Timefrown brokenheart ill
thank you for the reminder!laugh laugh

The constant sensation of wanting to throw up!

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Thu 11/13/08 04:11 AM
I would get over you faster but for the residue of love.

ah- those excruciating realizations....

Like the last few moments before sleep covers me
or the first few breaths before I dare open my eyes.

What about the insidious reminders throughout the day?

Where things suddenly lose their proper purpose or place.

Boy- how pathetic that a box of pancake mix can set me into a tailspin

Songs I barely listened to or ones I've heard all my life are all about us

Article of clothes are now my enemy just cause you liked them on me.

Parts of my own body Taboo!!

Residue

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Thu 11/13/08 03:59 AM
have you been bugging my phone?laugh flowerforyou flowerforyou flowerforyou

enderra's photo
Thu 11/13/08 03:53 AM
boy have i ever been living that nightmare!!!flowerforyou

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Wed 11/12/08 04:12 AM
pretty quick turnover i would say.:wink:

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Wed 11/12/08 04:07 AM
"bury him"
she said
but like a phantom limb
severed
yet
i still feel your hands
upon me
rightly so
it was those hands
that said so much
more
with warmth
tenderness
and dare i say
love
they comforted
stroked
or fondled
pressed out my longing
how long
will their
absence
be felt
missing
in the
long ago
war
you know
i hate
they gathered
buried
those withered
remains
still we see
them unearthed
paraded around
in gray
my skin
turns
under the weight
of the
mark-less mark
your hands
felt cupping
perfect
me
i did not imagine
it
like this
ending
I was as
long into
the future
with those
lovely
phantoms
all over me
still
a last breath



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Wed 11/12/08 03:56 AM
:wink: surprised been thereflowerforyou

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:56 PM
YOU ARE ASKING FOR TROUBLE. YOU ARE EVERY MAN'S ON HERE WET DREAM BUT WELCOME. I wish I could switch!!!

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:49 PM
I AM MAD AS HELL, AND I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE...

yes go, go to your window and open it and scream

I AM AS MAD AS HELL, AND I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:47 PM
hooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwllllllllllllllllllllll!!!


enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:44 PM
autumns come quickly this year
chilled panes
i know
for i am an autumn child
birds hardly sing
conspiring their winter retreat
feeling older
summer hope and dreams
gone
in the distance
construction hurried
avoiding autumn rain
sheet will soon fall
things are starting to die
withering, they turn colors.
WHAT OF LOVE?
not one iota closer
in sleep
fitfully pushes clouds aside
behind each cloud
never there
morning brings
reality
hard mattress
cold pillow
i sit
clock ticks
hammers hammer
autumn comes

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:36 PM
She comes to me every night.
She whispers in my ear.
She tells me what is right and what is wrong.
She tells me things I don't know or understand.
She tells me things are not what they seem.
She gives them new names, secret names.
Names that only she has given them.

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Tue 11/11/08 03:32 PM
words, words, words
they are only words.
words, words,
and more words
but more tan words,
there are ACTIONS!

passion is not.

LOVE>>>IS

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:26 PM
WHAT MADE YOU BELIEVE WHAT WAS NEVER GIVEN?
WHEN WHAT YOU KNOW IS ONLY A SHELL OF WHAT YOU PERCEIVE.
TRUTH IS HARSH, UN-FORETOLD, AND CRUEL.
TRUTH IS NOT SYMPATHETIC TO HALF BLOWN HOPES.
THE TRUTH IS IN MY EYES BUT DARE NOT LOOK THERE.
TOO HORRID, TOO REAL FOR NOVICE BRAVES TO BARE.
UNLIKE THE NOTCHES THAT ADORN THEIR HEARTS.
BLOODY ENEMIES THESE UNTOLD TRUTHS!

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 03:18 PM
i fell in love for a moment
and the parents were met
and the bells were rung
and the rings were placed
and the children were born
and the songs were sung
and all this happened within your face

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 12:36 PM
thanks

enderra's photo
Tue 11/11/08 12:17 PM
parted
separated
by only
the space
of a few hours
already
craving
thirsty
longing
divided
partly
feeling
a part
of soul
missing
that only
a few weeks ago
unknown
now
indelible
partly
thinking
of doorways
black chairs
mirrors
tables
beds
silk stocking
feathers
oils being spread
open yeilding

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