Morning.

i hate getting in fights in my mother and then not being able to sleep .

hi

goodnight everyone.

Good night eveyone. I'm off to bed for the night, even though I been sleeping like all day.

Goodnight everyone

Ugh, I hate taking a nap in the middle of the day cause I dont feel good. And now I cant sleep when I'm a suppose to be sleeping.

hi everyone

hi, im home from being up north most of the day.

Hi everyone, I am off to go upstate for the day with my family. My step-dad's hunting cabin, that he is a member for is having an anniversary picnic. Going to remember the past members, get to know the present members, and welcome some new members also today. To make it short I get to sit in the wood with a bunch of red-necks,and their families,eat food,talk to everyone,and maybe go on a hick. I’ll be back sometime tonight. I hope the rain doesn’t stop anyone’s plans from happening. Have a great day everyone.

Jared Mark you mean the world to me. You are the reason I get up early in the morning and get to bed real late our phone calls that last five hours are what we really need to keep this together until I move in with you. I know you understand what is holding me back for moving in with you, and that takes a lot to stand me with until I am over my wall. Every other man would have left by now but you truly understand that I will only get stronger if you are by my side through it. I love you so much I cant tell you that enough. I am so ecstatic to be your fiancée. This has been the best couple of weeks in my life, you are a complete different man that what I have dated in the past. I am just so happy to one day be a part of your amazing family that loves me so much already are telling me I’m already part of the family. My family absolutely loves you and can’t wait for us to really start our life together. Jared Mark, without you I would have put up an even higher wall that I would have though would be helping me to cop and to save me. But in reality I would been just hurting myself in the long run. You have showed me that it is alright to cry in front of a man, and that you will be with me at the end of my support groups that I am going to go to for you. So that I am a strong person, and can finally put the past behind me and move on with my amazing life with you. I love you Jared Mark that I am truly crying while I type this. You mean the world to me, and I will be there for you every single day in the worst weather possibly nothing can never stop my love for you. And with that said, I’ll let this be the way it is. I love you!

<3 Court.

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Off to work, even though all I want to do now is sleep. Since I didnt get one wink at night time, oh my.

Almost 1am..and I'm getting up at 4:30am.

Hi (((((Bad))))) join the boat of not sleeping.

I been thinking about getting the sleeping tylenol pills..or actually go get a sleep test done with my doctor. To get one that would be right for me.

I cant sleep, but I am going to go try and at least lay down and relax. Night everyone.

<3

I'm off to sit on my bed and cut all the tags off of all the new clothes I bought this weekend, and wash them, and then back to packing more.

I'll pop in once I am all done with all that.