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So have you given up on women? Yeah I know that's not metal, didn't say it was, like I said I'm not angry or bitter so I don't have any interest in that screaming stuff, I like lyrics not wailing.

Um...it's not exactly something I choose to be. I just hate being alone.

And I could only like metal when I'm really freaking mad, which is what I'm not right now. Seether and Linkin Park take care of my needs just fine.

I'm not a metal guy. I'm a hopeless romantic guy. But maybe not THAT hopeless....I hope.

About my relationships and how I struggle with them.

Written by: Neil Diamond, Solitary Man

Melinda was mine
'Til the time
That I found her
Holding Jim
Loving him

Then Sue came along
Loved me strong
That's what I thought
Me and Sue
But that died too

Don't know that I will
But until I can find me
A girl who'll stay
And won't play games behind me
I'll be what I am
A solitary man
Solitary man

I've had it to here
Bein' where
Love's a small world
Part-time thing
Paper ring

I know it's been done
Havin' one
Girl who loves you
Right or wrong
We go strong

Don't know that I will
But until I can find me
The girl who'll stay
And won't play games behind me
I'll be what I am
A solitary man
Solitary man

Don't know that I will
But until love can find me
A girl who'll stay
And won't play games behind me
I'll be what I am
A solitary man
Solitary man

A Solitary man
Solitary man

Solitary .... man

wait I'm confused. and i do question everything actually. every. frikin. thing.

and why can't we do that? it's like suggesting we should never ask questions.....

very very thoughtful. i also appreciate the sometimes awful reality of never being able to escape from yourself. it's like, people don't think about these things.

thanks. for some reason no one is reading my stuff. maybe i should advertise...?

hey what's up man, i just joined this site. and if i may say something random, i met this girl on here and i'm paranoid she might be a scam artist...i mean what a way to mess with someone, you know? that's like the worst you could do.

Incomplete

woke up today to the noise of despair
it's a prank pulled off for the sake of displaying flair
and pride
you believe in one too many drug induced comas
a party of snide remarks and wide black marks
covering up the eyes
so im walking away with sadness inside
thinking of the last time that i had cried
i feel like lying down and going back to sleep
but im incomplete and thus ill keep walking
in and out of computer screens
to encourage myself and any others i can that are living
miles away
insignificant as that may be
but i do it anyway because nobody else will
or can
so im incomplete
and ill just keep walking in and out
of computer screens

crawlin along the ground
im feelin the presence of evil around me
please take it away

where do i get off to judge with a beating heart
an angered mind
how could i possibly deny this truth
when reality
is not what it seems
i wish that everyone
weren't so mistaken

and as an introspective lesson
i look into myself on the inside and find my judgment
is self-righteous and proud
oh again what right, where do i get off?
what right, what right do i have?

i have
i have done all the same things
so doesnt that make me no better than the rest?

a lesson for you
this life is all about love
and we're just coming upon ways in our lifetimes
to settle into addictions as we pull further and further from the truth
when the truth has always resided with us
and why is it so easy to pull further and further away
when we are supposedly civilized and redeemed?

believe me friends
times will soon get worse

we have to prepare
and in an attempt to stop beating my mistaken wings
i'll learn the deepest, truest meaning
of love

become
Truest love.

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Oh also, as a Christian I'm very confused about the duties of Christians. Obviously you can't force anyone to obey God because He Himself gave everyone free will, hoping that man might learn to love and serve Him using that free will. And I heard the early Protestants, at least early in terms of early 19th century or whatever, took it upon themselves to execute various punishments on people who did such things as commit adultery within their colonies. So I don't know if Christians are supposed to be completely non-tolerant toward anything the Bible forbids, or if love should be poured on everyone, wicked or no. It's a troubling matter for me because it seems like some sort of double standard or wacky contradiction; God executes judgment but lavishes love on both the deserving and the undeserving. So I dunno....

I myself am a Christian and understand that plenty of people in fact refer to themselves as Christians but are not genuine because A) they base it off tradition or how they were raised, B) their faith is false and not true, true faith is begun by Jesus and not man, and C) people will do whatever they think is the fad. I don't know if Christianity is a fad right now but i do know this country was founded on the belief systems and morals of Christianity, I mean even our forefathers who wrote the Declaration of Independence professed faith and belief in God, at least a number of them did. But look at our country now, it's absolutely immoral and sinful. We're no better than the Iraguies or however it's spelled who wage war against us.

no offense but your writing is really hard to read, whats with going from caps to uncaps?

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