I am so happy, I never ever thought i would be single and happy but i am i feel so empowered...this is gonna be a great day

Good advice but you should also talk to the childs pediatrician.....

the mixed emotions i have been through in the last 24 hours lol

very nice i like your style hon

its an honor to be welcomed by you kc...

Thank you so much!!

524...

Sometimes the unanswered questions are the ones you need the answers to the most, but, are too afraid to ask the questions.

Nothing



Looking up at the stars
Listening to the all the cars
Hearing your voice on the phone
Wondering why I am so alone
Ive looked for love
Now I'm looking up above
Ive searched for far too long
Life is full of lessons like a song
In all the wrong places
In all the wrong faces
Maybe its been here all the time
Caught up in life's rhyme
Ive been dancing in circles around you
You have stood still
Like a dance made for two
You have seen me ache and swallow the pill
Your patience and endurance becomes strong like an ox
While all the while i have been sneaky like a fox
I pace these empty halls searching for more
You just sit there on the floor
Watching and waiting for me to plea
"Please oh please be with me!!"
But i will be strong for that's who I've become
All you'll feel is numb
Because you lost your game
And you are the only one to blame
The strings are gone, one by one
With you I'm finally done
As i sit back and see the mess you have made
I watch all our memories fade
Up in flames, i burnt them all
And as i saw the picture fall
I felt so much better
By the way I also burned your letter
If only you could see the flame in my eyes
The minute you told me all those wonderful lies
I told you i will not go back again
I have finally broken that chain
Starting over isn't an easy thing to do
Its even harder getting over you
But I'm not on a stage, I'm not up for show
But you should get an Emmy you know
The act you played
Like we were just part of some masquerade
The lights are up, the curtains down
All these emotions i must drown
You aren't worth one more tear
Because all my affections you didn't hold dear
So this is my last goodbye
As i silently cry
You took everything from me
And now your face is all that i can see
I close my eyes and there you are
Driving down the road in her car
She says "say hi" but i know different
All the words you said but never meant
And i knew you had to keep me close
So i wouldn't suspect what you did right under my nose

why...how in the world could a person do this....i just need someone to talk to....

What makes you think you can do this to me you think you can

Control everything i do you think im just your little playtoy im

Not your freaking puppet i wont be on a string anymore how can i

Make you understand you f'ed up not me you quit loving me i hate You...but

How can i hate somebody i love? how can i love someone i hate god I

just want to let go and everytime

I try to you pull me right back in why what did i do to deserve

Such treatment?! you keep me on a string and when you call i ignore

But somehow the urge i have is to want more

I talk to you there is frustration in both our voices

And all the sudden they come running back so many choices

What do i do? lay down and die

While you just stand there to my face and lie

I loved you with everything i had

And all you left me with was an empty core

I promised myself i wouldnt go back for more,

Now im at step one again

And you are making me feel it again

The pain

The hurt

I wont shed one more tear

There is nothing that i Fear

Just let me let go

Why cant you do it

I freaking hate you

Just let me let go....

anyway...so yea....

bad day

far away by nickelback

Dear Diary,

I wish he would just get the hint.....
why doesnt he?
ugh...sigh...men....

i am

good morning everyone...

I'm bored

sigh....wondering if hes thinking about me....

To a special someone...



I never thought i would be here
For there isnt much that i fear
Hes gone and i can see
That im finally free
Im on the mountain all alone
Happiness is all that can be shone
But now im scared
Never thought anyone cared
I want to feel your warm embrace
I just want to see your face
You listen but you dont know
All these feelings i want to show
Im hiding dont you see
Please say its me
The one you want and crave
You have made me feel so brave
But now i want to feel your touch
Ive never met you but i miss you so much
I want to feel you whisper in my ear
I want to feel you when you are near
You have made me see what i deserve
You have made me see clearly
I want to be with you
I wish you did too
If you only knew
How i feel about you
But i guess youll never know
Because i will never get a chance to show
Ill keep hiding behind the phone
Listening to your guiding tone
Wishing and hoping there would be more
You have showed me whats in store
I look for a brighter day
Hopefully you will say
All the things i want to hear
The words you will whisper in my ear
When you finally realize
The day you look in my eyes