Thanks, but I don't want sympathy....that just means that I am being pathetic...but then again, I might be a little...

We're trying again....I told him I was leaving, had everything in the car and had made plans. I went to work that night and then stayed with a friend. I don't think he took my leaving seriously until I didn't come home that night. Anyways, the next day we kind of worked through some **** and now we're trying again, but we aren't engaged anymore... : (

I told him the minute I get even a hint of what used to be, I was going to leave for sure...

The reason I say his job is way harder is because I did a roofing job with him. We lifted twenty tons of gravel off of a roof with wheel barrows over a four foot ledge... It was killer, so I appreciate the hard work he does...

I don't know if he'd agree to counseling...

I couldn't afford it...his truck needed a new front end, bills, I had to make a trip to the er this year...

Not currently...i am going to try to get back in...

I'm sorry...it's just that if he was cheating, it would kill me....I have never cheated on anyone in my life....if I was not good enough and he needed to have somebody else to make up for me.....ugh....I have had a few boyfriends cheat in the past....worst feeling in the world...

I have been with him for a year and a month....

thanks...

I just want him to be happy...I love him so much....it hurts so bad that he is miserable and I can't fix it...I just cry all the time....one benefit is that I have lost about 15 lbs through all of this...

I haven't been dreaming that big lately.. I am not in college anymore because I can't afford it. Those dreams and plans are on a back burner...

How can I just end it? He's been my everything...And I was sure this one was going to work....I think it is me....I must be broken or something when it comes to relationships.....they all end bad...but if this one ends, it'll be the worst...

yeah....I do about everything around the house cuz he's a roofer and works way harder than I do, since I am just a cashier at walmart....

The thing is my friends and I have sort of grown apart this last year....

I can't just leave...I have put everything into this relationship....I have a house in my name, all the bills in my name....It's a big mess....

I think my fiance is depressed....I have been trying really hard to cheer him up by fixing nice dinners, renting his favorite movies, trying to cuddle...nothing is working. He usually just snaps at me or tells me to go find something to do. If I cry about it, he gets frustrated and says that it's all I ever do. I don't know what to do....He doesn't even want to have sex with me. I try holding him in bed and he shrugs me off....he says he is too old...I am twenty and he's twenty nine...I hardly think that that is an explanation....

Any suggestions? Any thing I can do to help him out?

I think that with guys how "good" a woman is has to do with the guys' preferences and ideals. Therefore each guy has his own version of a good woman. Like, if a guy is picturing somebody his mom would love he is looking for someone that enjoys cooking and the homelife....if all a guy wants to do is fish, he wants someone that is right alongside him baiting the hook....I dunno, personal opinion maybe...

I went to pandora.com and put them in the create new station thing...I am loving the groups that are coming up...

Okay, so I heard this song "bad girlfriend" by Theory of a Deadman.....I love them....think mix of Buckcherry and Puddle of Mud...Amazing....I am thinking I just found my new favorite band...

Me too, that is why i put this up here!

One fish two fish
Red fish blue fish