yeah,that has crossed my mind .thanks.anyone else?

i just recently lost a 3 year relationship.for the 3 years i questioned her love.she was never very nururing in the dept of affection.anyway,over the 3 years time i put alot of money into the house we lived in which came to many thousands. when we first met,she met me in a bar one night .i had a bunch of money and was really spending it.she took to me immediately and the next day came to see me. it wasnt long and we was living togather.after so long in the relationship we fought alot because i felt deep in my heart that she really didnt love me and instead loved the money since i worked on the river as a first mate.i would be gone 28 days and then home 28 days.sometimes i felt like while i was gone she was taking money since we had a joint acc;t so she could pay the bills while i was gone.when i would ask her about descrepencies in the acc't she always said bills came do again,but i fealt that they couldnt have because i just paid them before i left to go to work for 28 days.things got so bad that i got into weed and other things,but the relationship to me was already aon a downward slide.she never had a problem with me using,she even helped me get what i wanted while i was gone on the boat.as long as the money was rolling in she didnt seem to care what i did. then one day,the work slowed drastically to the point i wasnt working.i had plenty of money however.we continued to fix the place up more until the money was tapped.then she said use was a problem ,but it never was until this point.well,i went to get help because i didnt want to use any more.she said we will still be togather. while i was in treatment we talked and everything would be the same .well,i called one day because she didnt make visiting day and another man answered the phone and said this **** had to end between me and her because she had been lying to us both.well i finally talked to her a couple days later and it was finally confirmed that they was a pair.ive been staying with family.since july 30th and there has been no contact from here. while i was asleep in bed today she showed up here at my families door and asked them if i was in california again because she had mail coming from california for me or from me. they said no hes in the bedroom asleep,hes been staying here. she told them she didnt want me to know that she was here.i think she didnt want to face me because of her guilt,but she did inquire about me.she wanted to know how i looked and things,etc,etc...she never really had any close ties with my family,for that matter neither do i,so she wasnt here for a casual visit im sure.i did love her at one point.can anyone give me any idea on what her purpose was to be here.a ladies opinion is very welcome.what is she doing and what is she thinking? why the sudden visit?i am confused.please help....what should i do?

im a firstmate on a towboat on the river.we push cargo barges from point a to point b...its very rough and dangerouse work but i love it however,i would love even more to try alaska king crab fishing on the berring sea or sword fishing off the grand banks.

yeah,ive been used like that but i didnt cheat.either way thats not respectful of him or herself.learn to stand on your own two feet is what i say to that and such a question wouldnt arise!

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i agree with that.i think he made his bed and should lay in lt ,but i also think its a far and biased stretch for him to say they get more rights than a law abiding citizen.

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I know people who who are wealthy and and are not very happy,and still serching
for love....a true love that lasts is priceless

if shes a fat monster,ugly or thinks shes the ****[especially the ones who think they are the ****],its just that much more fun to show them that thy arent!

I usually just ignore it all when im out.I am not the type to fall all over myself getting to a female in that environment.The hell with it,ya know!

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