Dopey=Goofy

(((((kntrygal1964))))) Hugs to you! I have delt with depression all my
life too. I just didn't know there was more to it that just that. After
trying to OD back in 2003 I found out I have Bi-Polar I/Manic depressive
with OCD. We are still trying to get my meds right and i'm on 4
different ones. It's hard for me to talk to people though. I feel as if
i'm a broken record saying the same things over and over. My family,
well my parents are all I have to help me through the good and bad
times. They are learning to reconize as well as myself when i'm starting
to go on a down curve. (((((hugs to all of us))))

Enjoyed that one tiger, thanks for the smile!

<~~~~~In that smack that mood =)

Well put Misty! I am 38 and was in a relationship with a 23yr old. He
was the one that couldn't keep up with me.

I agree with shenadra! It's just easier for me to remember by seeing
faces...

LOL, finep! Boy can't you just feel the love here! Thanks again for the
welcomes!

Wolf, iam4u, and Red....Thank you for the welcomes. Loved the poem iam4u
and Red i've keeped up with your forum also. Thanks for starting one up!
I do see that this is a place where I will not only make friends but
friendships to value for life!

Thanks for the welcome Tammy and i'll have to say the same to you too!
For being here all day is your butt asleep yet? LOL! Waaa I need a comfy
chair!

Hey Tigers, thanks for the welcome!

Gosh iam4u, I sure hope this place is not dying out...I just got here!

Thank you all for the welcome's! Hope everyone has a fun and eventful
weekend!

naughtyguy0914, glad to hear you are in a better place than you were
3yrs ago. It will be 4yrs ago May 18th that I did acutally go through
with trying the S word. I woke up on the 5th floor and spent 2wks. Long
story behind it but just wanted to let you know your not alone...I am on
meds now but they only help, they are not a cure. I still fight thoughts
some days. I even wrote a poem down a few days ago. This is Me, on this
site. Was the way I was feeling at the time. They say to journal but I
have a hard time doing that. Ok, i'm mumbling, just wanted to say your
poem hit home.

Meesh

WOW, I really think i'm starting to like this site! I can't believe how
many nice people have said welcome...Totally different from any site
i've been apart of!!!

Thanks for the Welcomes!!!
Michelle

Thank you for your compliment LexFonteyne. You are such an ego booster!
;)

Thank you for the welcome Morena350.

Wow, thanks for the compliments! I was so nervous about posting it
because of what others would think. I am a very self-conscious person
and something like this is putting myself way out on a limb. Again,
thanks!

Michelle

Thanks for the welcomes LexFonteyne, buttons, jokerjoann, Kojack and
Sluggo. So good so far ;)

Well, lets see where do I start. LOL! Been through 2 marriages, divorced
them both. Have 5 kids, 2 living with me (I am their sole supporter).
Just moved back down to Louisiana couple months ago after living up in
Cedar Rapids, Iowa for the past 3yrs. I was seeing someone there, we
broke up not long before I moved back down. We did decide to stay
friends/benifits (yeah, long distance). It's been VERY hard on me
because i'm still in love with the damn man. Grrrr! Anyway, for the past
month it had been possible for us to talk on the phone/text everyday. I
fell for him all over again (of course he doesn't feel the same way).
WEll today I couldn't take it anymore! I did it, 3 page letter did it.
It's over! So i'm here wanting to make new friends and get out of this
rut i've been in.

Ok, I've never actually written anything down. I've recently gone
through some difficult times. Saturday night I could hardly stay awake
but for some reason I was compelled to write this down.

THIS IS ME
Here I sit
This is me
I remember once when I was young and felt like I had my whole life to
look forward to. Nothing set in stone and the whole world yet to be
discovered.
This was me
I thought I had found true love. I thought I was doing what the world
expected of me.
I thought this was me
I fell in love, but from my flesh and blood and there were three.
This was me
I thought I made a mistake but was blessed with two and that made five.
This was me
I was reduced to nothing he saw to that, but I still clung on to my love
of five.
This I thought was me
I couldn't see daylight for the storm and fog.
This wasn't me
I thought I used up every single soaking wet tear I mustered up but more
always came.
This shouldn't be me
I saw a bright shining star and reached out.
I couldn't believe this was me
Was I dreaming, sure enough I didn't deserve him.
This wasn't me
The grudge that took years to build on my face became a smile again.
For once I wanted to be me
He took my heart and showed it places it had never been before.
I loved being me
It didn't take long before I pushed him away.
Why was this me
I lost my smile once again thinking, "this is just how my life is
supposed to be" just me.
I didn't want to be me
I look at my two little angels while they sleep and know they will
always love me unconditionally.
This is me
So, here I sit once again taking one day at a time, sometimes one minute
at a time.
Thinking this is me